carry on so you don't have to hurt again

mayfield four is a great band.
i'm stil coping okay i guess, with my work and relationships.
although sometimes it hurts like hell.
at least my social circle is expanding quite a lot. YAY haha
anyways, im stil rtying to get glossy paper to print out my pix. damn!its so hard to get things done
schools suchcha DREAD.
i'm closer to God these days, had been doing my QT, reading the bible, feeling hes presence really touches me. feeling his comfrt is really great. (:
and i've been learning a lil bit of malay. hahaha
i was



sHe walked outside her world the other day
she knew that he would leave eventually
Like the rest he promised everything
she's heard it all before
they never stay

Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
so carry on, carry on my friend

Wipe away the tears and don't you cry
it hurts like hell right now but give it time
may this lesson learned be your best
loves not worth the risk and don't forget

Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
cause walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
but carry on, carry on my friend
carry on...carry on..

I don't ever wanna hurt like that again


carry on by the mayfield four.

fuckthatshit!

thats classical music can you damn believe it.. no
i'm stopping my drummin so i can get one at home! hahahahah(:

oh, being pregnant makes you pee like seabiscuit.
kims really mad at iskanda. babe, i TOTALLY understand why.
ohhmffg, debra and i were rolling my thumbs in eng class, and MINI mornie scolded us, and CLAIMED that we were playing.
she doesnt know whads W.T.F. what the hell?! playing.? i dungetit.
pls explain. but the funni thang was aft she turned around, both of us simultaniously pointed at her. hahaha, crack the shit up of me. ha.
and mr toh wee kuang screamed in rage yest, it was SOO FUCKING FUNNY!! i so swear, damn!i didnt vid it down or itll be here forever.damn haha. its was so hilarious! i was trying so hard not to crack up, so i was makin myself think of sad stuff....haha yeah
and shiyee agitated me so much in physics class. fuck it. and i was like like (fuckerrrrrrd!)so loudly the whole class turned and look at uhhh.. me i guess haha. damn,so embarrasing.
omg and yeah, i went to my babe cousin's bday yest. she can recite 1 to 10 in jap, hokkien, malay, chi and eng.
shes 2 yrs old. WOW.

my fb is screwed up.

once upon a time.

i slept for 7 hrs yest. damnn. felt xtremely tired in skol. cuz i was 45 mins later thn my sleepin time (:
last few weeks were rather peaceful. playing silly quizzes on facebook and thinking of twitt in my sleep. no eyebags (:
i did well for my bio test (:(: yay. haha
aniwes, i hate amath.

i dunno where are things heading b/w my bff and i . argh,
saw sheryl in e bus stop whn i was on 27. she was singing to herself. weirdo
eng was sooooo fucken boring! like we had to go into our grps and discuss a lame article and ans some lame questions which was incredibly lame. bored my to tearrrrrrs.
i spat my gum out while laughing hard. damnn.
gonna chew it hard fer a week.
had a good laugh with nat and sy on e bus. speak of e devil .
GRIZZLY BEAR.
hahaha.
i realize i have quite a num of nerdy friends..
nerdy is good.

nailing jelly on the wall

omg sidney bought me studs fm malaysia

haha

thanks babe (:

and hersheys gum

i gav e em to debra and that bitch had to throw the m away cuz she was caught by mini mornie



hahahaha

you assholee



aniwes, i didnt know that wendy tan told some of my friends that i'm violent.. very violent

juz bcas i threw ONE THING my fone

DOESNT MAKE me a violent person, are you an idiot?

she told cass and it made me sound as if i'm a verry rash person.

i'm not.

do you know how my friends will think of me that way? and i'm in a rather new class. you really tainted my reputation. LUCKILY i have friends who realllly know me. luckily.

i think it's really lame to go round telling ppl what i'm NOT capable of.

so much for a 'teacher' like you. you didnt think did you? i don't actually think its VERY nice of you bitching bout me behind my back. pls show some sensivity, which is very much lacking in you.

soon it will be.

was at that cd shop. WOW check that out.

fine me :O

I'm coming home!
I've been gone for far too long!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Have I fucked things up again?
I'm dreaming
Too much time without you spent!


It hurts!
Wounds so sore!
Now I'm torn
Now I'm torn


I've been far away
When I see your face
My hearts burst into fire!
Hearts burst into fire!

You're not alone
I know I'm far from home!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days that I just spent


My bed's so cold, so lonely
No arms, just sheets to hold me

Has this world stop turning?
Are we forever to be apart?
(Forever to be apart)

I'm coming home
I've been gone for too long!
(I'm coming home)
Do you remember me at all?

Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
I'm screaming
I'm dreaming

HEARTS BURST IN TO FIRE

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS YOU'RE MOTHER FUCKING PROBLEM?!

MY DAD'S SUCH AN @#&%*#$^%($&%
CENSOR THAT SHALL WE.
OH THANKS DAD! FOR LIKE LOOKING AT MY MSN HISTORY AND SPYING ON MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND LOOKING AT MY TAGG AND BLOG. WELL THATS GREAT!!!! I HOPE YOU BLOODY HELL READ THIS SHIT.
YOU'RE DISGUSTING AND HORRIBLE. JUST SO YOU KNOW.
I WANT TO THANK YOU SOO SO SO! MUCH FOR INSPECTING ME AND LOOKIN THRU ALL MY STUFF.
OH YOU CANT STOP ME FROM MIXING WITH ALL THE FRIENDS I WANA CHILL WITH.
I HAVE MY FUCKING DISERMENT SO PLS. STOP TREATING ME LIKE A BLOODY HELL 3 YEAR OLD SPASTIC IDIOT.
I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING HELL MAD IS THAT MY DAD EXPLICTLY CHECKS ALL MY MESSAGES, CALLS, FACEBOOK, TAGG,MSN HISTORY!? AND MY HW, MY FRIENDS.
LIKE MY PARENTS HAVE ALL MY CONTACTS IN THEIR FUCKING PHONE!?
LIKE WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THEIR MOTHERFUCKING PROB?!
WHY DON;T YOU DO THAT TO PRIS?! LIKE SO WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME MIZING WITH ALL THESE FRIENDS? WELL IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH MY DOING SO THEN LETS HAV A GATHERING SHALL WE?! DON;T FUCKING JUZ LOOK AND CALL ALL MY FRIENDS AND START ACCUSING ME OF DOING ALL THOSE SHITTY STUFF. LIKE SERIOUSLY FUCK IT. THATS SO DAMN BLOODY HELL GROSS.
YOU DISGUST ME LIKE SHIT
BY DOING SO.
AND YOU JUZ DONT GIVE ME THAT DAMN FREEDOM WHICH I DUE NEED.
OH SO YOU THINK BY DOING ALL THIS MOTHUFUCKING SHIT WILL DRAW ME AWAY FRM MY FRIENDS?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
DREAM BIG.
AND THANKS FOR CALLIN MIS WENDY AND TELL HER ALL THE SHIT I DID.
BY THE FUCKING WAY, I ONLY THREW MY FUCKING FONE. LIKE SOOOO WHAT ??!?!?!
PPL HAV DIFFERENT WAYS OF DEALING WITH ANGER.
MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY.MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY. LEMME EMPHASISE. SAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY.
WELL I FORGAVE YOU BUT DID YOU?
AND DAD, STOP ACTING PARANOID AND SHIT.
YOU FUCKING NEED COUNSELLING.
YOU GUYS SHOULD DREAM BIG!.
THANK YOU ! I'M DONE!