whoop

i <3 eminem

i had a headache today but was forced to get to ms. by my parents . shit

my flu has gone down quite a bit (:

i cant really pronounced calculator properly

ROT IN PIECES

'Cause sometimes you feel tired
,feel weak,
and when you feel weak,
you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you,
you gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you
and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.
Yo left,
yo left,
yo left right left
Yo left,
yo left,
yo left right left
Yo left,
yo left,
yo left right left
Yo left,
yo left,
yo left right lef
Till I collapse Im spilling these raps long as you feel em
Till the day that I drop you'll never say that I'm not killing them
Cause when I am not then I am stop pinning them
And I am not hip-hop and Im just not Eminem.
Subliminal thoughts when I'm stop sending them women are caught in webs spin and hauk venom
Adrenaline shots of penicillin could not get the illing to stop.
Amoxacilin is just not real enough.The criminal cop killing hip-hop filling minimal swap to cop millions of Pac listeners.
Your coming with me, feel it or not youe gonna fear it like I showed you the spirit of god lives in us.
You hear it a lot, lyrics the shock is it a miracle or am I just a product of pop fizzing up.
For shizzle my whizzle this is the plot listen up you bizzles forgot slizzle does not give a fuck.
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, cant shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out - am I high?
PerhapsI'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, cant shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out and my high burn outI'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.
Music is like magic theres a certain feeling you get when your realand you spit and people are feeling your shit.
This is your moment and every single minute you spend trying to hold onto itcause you may never get it again.
So while youre in it try to get as much shit as you canand when your run is over just admit when its at its end.
Cause I'm at the end of my wits with half this shit that gets in.
I got a list here's the order of my list that it's in.
It goes, Reggie, Jay-Z, Tupac and Biggie, Andre from Outcast, Jada, Kurupt, Nas and then me.But in this industry I'm the cause of a lot of envy, so when Im not put on this list the shit does not offend me.
That's why you see me walk around like nothing's bothering me.
Even though half you people got a fucking problem with me.
You hate it but you know respect youre got to give me
The press's wet dream
like Bobby and Whitney.
Nate hit me.
Soon as a verse starts I eat it at MC heartwhat is he thinking?
How not to go against me?
Smart.
And its absurd how people hang on every word.
Ill probably never get the props I feel I ever deserveBut Ill never be served my spot is forever reserved
If I ever leave earth that would be the death of me first.
Cause in my heart of hearts I know nothing could ever be worse.
Thats why Im clever when I put together every verse
My thoughts are sporadic, I act like Im an addictI rap like Im addicted to smack like Im Kim Mathers.
But I dont want to go forth and back in constant battles
The fact is I would rather sit back and bomb some rappers.
So this is like a full blown attack
Im launching at them
The track is on some battling raps who want some static
Cause I dont really think that the fact that Im Slim matters
A plaque of platinum status is whack if I'm not the baddest.
Until the roofThe roof comes offUntil my legsgive out from underneath me

I will not fall,

I will stand tall,

Feels like no one could beat me.

-------till i collapse----



i hate hyprocrites.

stacks on decks

with my bestie (: whosh where's sheryl ?? haas

and the darlings.

i'm a sleeping goddess

i like it whn ppl brush my hair.

it comforts me (:

i like being happy.

i always have the preception that guys do not hold grudges, i was terribly wrong.

its really quite disturbing

irk me.

i really hate schol. (: well at least everyone i know hates schol .

all the teachers pms today, kinda fustrating tho.

i'm just-so-not-in-the, hey! im gonna study 23-5 hours aday mood.

and it definitely gets super fustrating whn ppl around are duckin their heads in piles and piles of death pils. what also know as (textbooks)

there is a more effecting way of committing suicide.

but hol was great.

i'm a drug

i had a huge fight with my mum yest.

would not wana go to the gory details but it was really bad, and it happened past midnight.
was screaming like a fucking whore.

bt its slightly better now.

why cant ppl differentiate betwn laughing and tearing. its quite a grave mistake and definitely EXtremely fustrating when they misstood you for laughing instd of crying when you are so hard.
and in your tears and heavy panting, sometimes you jus dont give a fuck and try to hallucinate destin wearing a pair of stripe underwear dancing around with a banana under hes armpits , fishballs in he's eyes and carrying a bible. so you can laugh temporary and snort that you're crying. argh. fuckfuckfuck
but you cant blame them i guess...:0

so in the midst of crying, i decided to entertain myself by jumping around my room like a moronic imbasil, screaming fuck. well, it kinda work a lil. befor i dined on hagan dazz (: weeeeeeeee

but poodle(tats what i call myself) you were being a fucking arsehole crying over yar mothe, oh fuck plsss, thats not damn hell worth it.

i'm strong
i will be stronger

i goe a new pair of high waisted denim jeans. muhaha.

lets be normal

defination for samantha--

she will eat you alive, no man is man enough (: yay

i'm so proudhaa


went to penisula wit sheryl and arron yest.

haaa, saw a thousad dollar note for the first time (: wooo

guitaristss there were really kewl.

haa

I WANT MY LOAFERS FRM CHARLES AND KEITH

regreted hell not buying 'em. :(

ohwells, gotta buy 'em today then muha

gona get my -the beatles bag- too YAAAY

i hate ah lians.

i"M DRunK ANd YoUR StiL FUcKIng UgLY

unfolding the rosebud

i'm happy with myself for not shouting to the mother when she was to me (:
for the first time .

i tend to shout whn i'm angry. its gets a lil fustrating sometimes.

oh, i somehow shouted at ben today too. at least i apologised.

i shouted at joshua too. he's a pain in the arse.

i hate ditching ppl. it sucks.

i hate feeling bad.

.i shout at ppl. and it may get a lil out of hand sometimes.

i am rebellious.

i say profanities , bt i;m changin that.

i hate studying

i hate tuition

i get mad when accused

i am hysterical when i dont get the things i want

i'll slap you if you say i'm a bitch, i swear.

i do verbal abuse

i tend to throw things around if i'm mad

i like to tease ppl . quite harshly smetms

i can be really really mean

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you may think i'm crasy to share with you my flaws, but i would want ppl to probably understand me bette ? haa

i cant whine

i am very forgiving

i can comfort others quite well

i would try to oblidge

i am quite compromising

i forgets things realay easily. esp bad ones (:

i am very cheerful

i love laughing , mostly like a retard

i am very open, i;m not prudish

i am very friendly

i am very vivacious

i can be your best bud in approximately 10 seconds

this isnt self prasing nor contradictory to what i had said earlier on.


i like muffins. with chocolate icecream
it makes me happy

let me in your room

i'm at the far right (:






i missed their performance cas i was on the phone. ohdamn.

fisherman slippers! flip flop flip flop~ cheryl is carrying my baby.

it green

oh dang, it was passed around to like at least a hundred ppl.

and it amazongly landed with a random girl.

me: why is my baby with you?!

her: errr,,??

me: hand it over moron !

(:

bothe guys are really handsome (:

bacon is so delectable. makes me high

i played my guitar for 4 hours straight (:

now i can feel the stinging pain aching at my finger tips. ow

i will be super busy this whole march hols. nt really a holiday for me.

apparently the teachers failed to notice that holidas are a time of REST and NOT work. thats too bad.

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hello, i hate maths (:

I FUCKING HATE MATH. ITS A SUBJECT FOR..

lets not name em shall we ?

side by side

sound check is evitably important.

apparently the av crew totally failed to notice it. morons

i know i flopped the performance yesterday. but i find it quite hilarious haaa

thanks for all your cheering babs.

and why are those mothe beeping mongrols leering at me yest?

oh, bitch off. faggots.

you may be snickerin at me cause i look weird, but i'm laughin cas you guys look all the same. dorkes.

if you judge others , you have no time to love 'em+

i've got A2 for my english. thats a miracle. lol

under stars and stripes

i failed ss.
everyone failed ss. lol
yay, i hav nazri to assist me to carry my amp (:
i keep breaking things. theres smething wrong with me
i broke my guit string, and my drumsticks!?
impossible
i swear i did;nt use strength.

schol has been so horridbly boring .
rather faggotly spastic nowadays.


huessin has been counselling me, and it has been rather enriching.
he said smth really amusing to me
- hey gal, boys think with their dicks, instead of their heart.

goddamn this is so true.

hahaha
he is a really strong person emotionly which really encourages me to carry on in life despite setbacks and all that shitbag.
aww dude, thanks a mill bro.
i'm glad i got to know you.
cheers:)




this is so adorable

i feel like a kid again ! jeez


and it feels amazingly good


assembly was like..



























shite












we hd ppl walking in circles and to and fro like 3 year olds, thinking they're profeccionals. goddamn.

it bored me to tears. i swear. tearss .i fucking cried. aww.NOT

our schol damn right need to give us something *interesting.
and not errr, math olymics, or chinese compo writing compet, or some weird movie in e lib. c'mon, why not try compets for graffiti, or like compets for bands, or bitchy miss tms .go get a life.

we totally thresh 3.1 in soccer and debate,



jeez. thats pathetic.











i gona get a pair of gucci shades.

he's hands are holding me. thats more then enough

tenth avenue north.

Why are you striving these days

Why are you trying to earn grace

Why are you crying

Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough

To where will you go child

Tell me where will you run

To where will you run

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fallIn the dead of night

Whenever you call

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin

So I could carry you inAnd give you life

I want to give you life

Cause I,

I love you

I want you to know

That I,

I love you

I'll never let you go


-by your side-10th avenue

i was really screwed up this week til i heard this song yest.
i think i've been neglecting God for quite a long time .
thats bad.
i guess life probably changes when you're at your lowest and the world seems to be crashing down on you,
but i guess jesus is always there for me (:

and that comforts me more then anything else in the world.

he's hands are holding me (:
maybe..just maybe.. i like being imperfect.

when stars turn blue

True love is neither physical nor romantic.

True love is the acceptance of all that is, has been, will be and will not be.

-
when there is nothing left but God, that is when you find that God is all you ever need .

(:


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i shld stop wasting money.

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i hereby officially tendering my resignation as a teenager. i will accept the responsibilities as a 8 year old instead.

-i would go to macdonalds thinking that its a 4 star restaurant

-i want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make side walks with rocks

-i want to swim in mudpools

-i want to lie under a big oak tree and run lemonade stand with my friends

-i would sleep in a hamlock

-i would make my own tree house

-i would thinkthe world is fair

-i would think that love is SIMPLE

-i would believe a person when they say they love me

-i would think anything in life is possible

-i would whine
soooo.... heres my atm card, makeup, complexities in life, money and recipts.
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i am resigning from teenagehood (:
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i have so many friends whose bfs are real bitches.
c'mon BOYS. whn you say you lov a girl you dun just rattle this shit from your mouth and a whole list of how you would take care of the girl and ltr shove her aside for noo apparent reason. you've gotta mean it .
you dont say it for the sake of saying.
-iloveyou- is so commonly and rashly used by teens nowadays.
dont you guys even know what it means?
check up the dict you idiots.
guys should nver say iloveyou through messages or online.
they should spill that right in yal face.


-bcause of you lil bastard, i neglected my friends whoreally cared for me . i finally know who the hell you are. and who really did cared for me . you piece of mothe beeping fag so is this how you treat ppl. Goddamn you're so damn bloody heartless . oh, bitch off. hope you fuck and die in helllllllll.
and pls don't have this pleasure that i'm totally hating you or i'm mad at you.
i'm totally not. cause you don't have balls.
you;re a craven loser.
i totally forgive you and i don't hold grudges. bcas i'm not a bitching idiot.
jus to let you know, i'm flawless without you. you fucking Liar .


ATTENTION
i hate it when boys says iloveyou, but yet dont mean it.
its disgusting.its just fucking disgusting
PS : oh and BTW, women dont date boys, they date men.
basically, women dont date losers.

vengence isnt the right word-southcott

In the morning I'll be,Too tired to wake,
From counting the constellations,
I renamed,
One for every mistake,
They're all named after you,

I've acquired a taste,
For making the same mistakes,
Because baby I'm a mess,
You don't want to clean up,
You said you've had enough,
We won't be eighteen much longer,
This keeps getting harder,

Eyes like a target,Is all you've become,
You're second hand smoke,To a lover's lung,
You're killing me now,
You're killing me now,
A saint without sin,And a diamond ring,
Pawned for lust,And a broken dream,
You're killing me now,
You're killing me now,

Telling me that it's all over,
Try and hold your so close,while looking over my shoulder
,Too many nights that I've been sober,
Will you fade away,cause we just got older,
So break down,
And make a scene,
We'll make all the papers,
And magazines,
And they'll forecast your mood,On the ten o'clock news,

Eyes like a target,A fist with a gun,
Like second hand smoke,To a lover's lung,
You're killing me now,You're killing me now,
One last kiss to leave me senseless,
If not pretty, just make this painless

One last kiss to leave me out.
.
.
.
nazri sended me this song . jeez(:

.P.S. dang, i have a really hot guitar (:
dont steal it.

with flames you'll reap gold

i got my guitar today(:
its vintage


.
thanks nastri for all your help today. it was really really nice .
appreciate it.
and laura for helping me see things differently.
shi yee , connie,parveen,ben for being crappy, glen,kelly,kim, debra,julia,cass,cheryl,esther,destin for tripping me to make me laugh(: haha.and God, for your comfort .
love you guys like hell (:
without you guys it;l be hell for me definitely .


, guys, i'll move on (:


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i got into the audition!

take off your shirt and pants

I DONT KNOW WHAT BRANDS OF GUIT I SHOULD GET. this is so fustrating.



if i'm getting fender, it;ll look smth like this, duller a lil








and the last instrument i would get would be e magnificent, glorious, holy drumset
ilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehistattosilovehestattos
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omg i totally left my boyfriend in moss burger.
can you believethe stupidity.
luckily i found out that i lost him and almost commited suicide when i realize i left him in another universe:O
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thankfully shiye too k him with her when we were shoppin and i didnt get a heartattack.

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thanks sweetheart (: