i caught a flame

i've realize i've been livin in denial for one and a half months. no matter how i try to turn to other sources of distraction, its really hard to supress my feeings cuz its jus gona rise. i don't really know where to start . frankly speaking.i'm kinda stuck. i was hurt a month ago BADLY. and its kinda hard for me to let go. so thats why i feel like a loser cuz if only i knew that i couldn't handle it i wouldn't have taken it. i know it has been quite a long time ago. but i'm still trying to burnt all my memories away and thats hard.but i think it breaks me when i feel that probably i was forgotten loong time ago.and i'm still in this quandary situation . feeling all shitty and everything. i may put a facade but nay,i cant really escape the truth cnt i? still trying to swallow this shit down . hope i don't choke (: