Sunday, December 27, 2009
GG-FIED!
Z went back to the hospital again!
omg i was incredibly worried. he fainted the first time cuz he blatantly didn't drink up when he was supposed to .
and i think he's getting weaker or smth so he was apparently ashen white yest and was sent to the hospital to do some check and the doctor found that he's blood count was low and he's body temperature droped drastically D;
I AM SO WORRIED
he actually went out to ride for 6 hours at the ecp ,e one with the never ending tunnel, for 6 hours. and as usual, i sent him like a 6 page message repriminding him. he reached home at like WHAT. 4.31am .
i hope he doesn't stay at that place again. gosh, its so depressing.
anyways, i will be chionging my hw this week.
SIANz
next year is goona be SO DIFFERENT.
come before
before you now
and i lay my burdens down
prince of peace
counselor
son of father i adore
i love you lord
you're all i have
you're all i ever really want
your face is all i seek
you're put a new song in my heart
a song of praise to the lord
and i will worship all my life
trust in the lord
hallelujah. hallelujah
hallelujah, hallelajah
Friday, December 25, 2009
ohh ah ohh ah ohh ah ohh

the play today was reallly engaging. hahah. i could relate to it more than last year's play :)
so i went 313 with rachel and my sis . IM GONNA BUY THAT BOOTS FROM NEW LOOK.
Monday, December 21, 2009
i feel like i'm falling
Getting lost in Your embrace
I see a fire burning brighter
It's calling me to catch the flame
I feel like I'm falling over and over in love with You
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real
I feel like I'm falling into the arms of a mighty God
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real
You're drawing me closer to Your side
It's the safest place I know where to hide
With one glance You captured my heart
You speak Your words and set me apart
I feel like I'm falling, I feel like I'm falling
I feel like I'm falling, falling into the arms of love
amazing grace
i've realize that i need to change.
and actually , i've been a happier person then before.
i was carrying all the weight from life, from heartbreaks . but i feel so light now, after i decided to leave everything to God. i feel so .. free (:
and theres no need to rush or be impatient about things. because i will let everything fall in his time.
There was a man who smiled like the sunrise
His face I cant forget
His love displayed was unlike any other
He humbly dressed just like a vagabond with
Discourse like a King
And when he talked the angels stopped to listen
Hosanna
Filio David
Hosanna
In Altisimis
(Hosanna, Son of David, Hosanna in the Highest)
He often spoke about a Kingdom coming
His words I cant forget
Where all who come may rest beneath His mercy
Where royalty is flowing through the veins of
Every citizen
And every soul is treasured like a promise
Monday, December 14, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
love is so transient (:
oh i completed some of my assignments today. haha. yay finally somethings accomplished. hahah.
how i wished everything can be so effortlessly done. hahah.
but christmas is finally coming <3
if you fall
The imagery that lasts forever
So this is love and that's a lovely thought
You have to care for it to keep it together
And if you fall, will you get up
Stuck in a dream, will you wake up
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold, will you stay warm
Drift too far, will you swim towards the shore
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
Let's just sing and we'll fill the air
The melodies that blend together
I speak so sweet of words so delicate
Like the glass I hope will never shatter
And if you fall, will you get up
Stuck in a dream, will you wake up
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold, will you stay warm
Drift too far, will you swim towards the shore
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
beautiful
Come on girl
Come on baby
Come on girl
I love you baby
I love you now
I love you baby
I love you now
Look at us, were beautiful
All the people push and pull
But let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try
Look at us, were beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide
Come on baby
Come on girl
Come on baby
Come on girl
I love you baby
I love you now
I love you baby
I love you now
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
according to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you
I’m difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I’m a mess in a dress,
can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.
According to you
I’m boring,
I’m moody,
you can’t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.
I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me dizz-ay
According to me
you’re stupid,
you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. you, you
According to you. you, you
According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
i caught a flame
Thursday, November 26, 2009
God shaped hole
And every angle has its merit
But all comes down to faith
Thats the way i see it
You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
"all we have is know"
But i don't believe it
There's a god-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a god-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void only he can fill
Does the world seem gray with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?
That's my point of view...
i blew it
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
tick tock.
and i don't wana fall sick AGAIN
and i had diarrhea :O OMFG suck hell.
ohhh and i watched paranormal yest. not the current one. i watched the one in 2007. and apparently its based on a true story. the couple wanted to experience the spiritual ream and everything.. you know paranormal activites. to the expanse of their death. i have no idea why someone would wana play with this kinda spiritual thing. i think i was totally freaked out because the story was true and i watched it at night so. uhhuh. and i watched exorsism. the pocessed women was tied up to a bed with chains and she BIT HER ARM OFF. she bit her arm off. i was like what the HELL!? and she spat her HAND out. seriously. WHAO.
Monday, November 23, 2009
dollhouse
This is my heart, it’s not a toy
So what’s with you playing with my mind
We used to be cool, this used to be love
Now it’s become, something like a job
Like it or not, maybe things were changing right before our eyes
I tried to be a picture perfect girl
But you were in your own fantasy world
Tryna control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me
Cause I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll
You call the shots, right down to my shoes
I liked what you liked cause you told me to
And i don’t think that you could even tell
I fell out of love, but it never showed
I gave up on us so long ago
But you’ll never know
baby don’t pretend like you know me so well
I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
try to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me
I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll
I’ll never be made of plastic
So glad that my heart’s elastic
No matter what you do
I’ll bounce back offa you
Cut me but I’m not bleeding
I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
tryna to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me
I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No I could never be, stuck living life like this
Behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll
And I come with imperfections
Epitome of perfection
if you can’t understand, loving the way I am
then you’re no good for me, so glad i kept my receipt
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Real life bitch in a fake ass world
i have been codependent but now i'm independent (:
Friday, November 20, 2009
meet me half way
and over time i realize........... he must have made ME cuz only God could create a beauty like ME.
and I"m beautiful.
anyways, i'm ill. you'll not know how fucking annoying it is to fall sick when you're otw home.
went peni today with co. saw some nice guits . thought of selling my electric guit.
thn when i reached home, i got a shitty lecture from my mom. and my legs feel like jelly.
its really cold here.
i need to get gel liner.
i have a headache.
Friday, November 13, 2009
WANTS
i want to throw up everything
i want to fall into a deep loong sleep.
i want to wake up thinking everythings gonna be okay.
i want to make everything perfect
i want everything i need
i want to reverse time
i want to be free
i want to be recognised
i want someone to guide me home
i want you to ignite me
i want to lead my life
i want to be happy
i want a garden
i want to fix my life
i want to reflect
i want to go to boston
i want to start anew
i want to get out of this place
i want to be found
i want to play
i want to start over
i want to get a lover
i want to go to spain
i want a new town
i want to leave this behind
i want the sunrise
i want you to fuck off
i want my time
i want you to wear my chains
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
fluff
my hands are so cold now its kinda hard to type.
and spa was just...
but Z comforted me so i guess i'll do okok lo. :)
oh and firman has 4 cats?! omFg 1 cat and 3 kittens ;) awwwwwwww.
we were talking yesterday and i could hear his cat fighting over the line. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i want one :)
persian cats are jus ... priceless.
anyways, i cant upload this perisan cat i saw on the net. kinda resembles shiyees face.. frm the side that is. shingZ.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i was like :@ he was like :* they were like :O
Monday, November 9, 2009
blueberry yumyum
shiyee:ermmmmm....... hmmmmmm..... a pussy?
correct!
so whats a pussy then??
shiyee: hmmmm.. (looks around anxiously) hmmmmmmmm........................... *shows pathetic face......................... ermmmmmmmmmmmm....
a pussy is an anus?
WA FTW!?
. . .
so whats erection then?
shiyee: :( cum?
. . .
Sunday, November 8, 2009
it won't be coming back to me
ohh and i learnt how to play boston by augustana on e piano. HA!
but i still prefer lullaby:)
and im gonna watch paranormal :)
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
don't worry honey, i never needed anybody..i never needed nobody
oh i got scolded by the bus uncle cuz i covered his screen. the one that allows him to see the uppe deck .
oh pls, i really dunno whats the big deal.
im down with flu, it sux.
sulaiman sounds like a very fat person..
but i hav a friend called sulaiman who's really cute.
and all my friends spam my phone today. haha
i can jus buang my bio pract, cuz i broke a testtube.
so lame sia.
and she kept staring at me. WTF?!
ohh..and we had a good laugh during lucnh time. haha.
i think my mom is totally not satisfied when i tell her i don't go out wit guys. cuz i'm usually back home late and i will get interrogated when i'm back. in the toilet, when i'm changing, when i'm reading, when im eating. walaoZ.
and i had tomato sauce all over my back and armpit. connie you drunk bitch.
it was really sticky.
yuck
between love and hate-----
Watched her as she wiped her eyes;
You don't make me sorry. Now I know
That you never listened - Listen.
Thinking about that high school dance
Worrying about the finals
Yes I know
You're feeling lonely
Oh lonely, so lonely.
Never needed anybody, I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, I never needed nobody
Don't worry about it, honey
I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, it won't change now.
Am I wrong?
Don't sing along with me.
I said I was fine,
It's just the second time
We lost the war
She'd be in the kitchen
I would start the fire
Those days are gone
But you know I can't give up - Give up.
P.S. if I may ask why
When will they get tired
We've stayed up
All night tryin' - Tryin'.
Never needed anybody, I never needed nobody
I never needed anybody, I never needed anybody
Don't worry about it, honey
I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, it won't change now.
Am I wrong?
Don't sing along with me.
I said I was fine,
The second time
We lost the war
by the strokes..:)
Monday, November 2, 2009
you keep on crying, baby i'll keep you dry.
oh ya pei ya somm bah leh ya roti prata cha quay tiao.
jus some pick up lines i took frm ben:)
school was fine.. jus that i was really shag today and had a terrible sore throat. co and i tried nail polish remover. i just sniffed it a lil and taste it a lil .haha it was hacking sick..argh.. i can still feel the aft taste lingering down my throat. pui noa.
yuck
and shi yee was being all so scared so she didn't try haha:)
i remembered i nearly stood on the zinc rooftop near the band room and co was so scared i'll fall off and die. hahahaha:)
i got no money, i got no car to take you on a date, icant even buy you flowers, but together we can be the perfect sole mates..
mamamia! here i go againn.
staying at home bores me to tears.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
she's so lovely she's so lovely she's so lovely!
the fucking chair!?!?!?!
omfg the fucking chair the fucken chair!!!! and every one was laughing at me fucking laughing at me?!?!?! omfg ive just been banished in to the valley of humilation jus shhoot me right now. fucken gosh.
ohh i really dont blame ben althuogh i really feel like cutting this face into 4 EQUAL parts. but really its not really his fault ............
hahaha. any ways. my right butt cheek is very painful....STEEL.
and ahmad was laughing the loudest i swear. you nonsense
and i think i have too many unglam vids and picts on facebook. omg.....................
mamamia here i go again!
my hair's really long now. YAYYYYY
thinking of bleaching half of it.. oh no laura will kill me.
andddddddd. ive officially stop *slouching. haha
TITS LIGHT THE WAY. HAHA thanks connie.
shi yee was rattling weird jokes to me in physics lesson. felt like tieing her up.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
used vs love
his 4 yr old son picked up a stone
and scratched lines on the side of the car.
In anger, the man took the child's hand
and hit it many times not realizing
he was using a wrench.
At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers
due to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father.....
with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'
The man was so hurt and speechless;
he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.
Devastated by his own actions......
sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches;
the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .
Anger and Love have no limits;
choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely
life & remember this:
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is
that people are used while things are loved.
Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,
People are to be loved.
Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
though this was really meaning full:D
Thursday, October 22, 2009
jamal malik!!!:D
and ohh! marksim is coming to singapore! i cant waittttttttttttt :D:D
its on the18 and 29 of nov in the esplanade concert at 730. so ima get the tix really soon:D heeX.
and i really wana go hog on all the stockings i can lay my hands on tmr.
and i need to get a dress and denim shorts againnnnnnnnnnnnn :D
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
you're nothing without me.
haha. i jus realiz my parents always get me what i want..MOST. so i guess i should stop fagging around and start to treat them nicely.. mostly my hobbies. hmm, like my drums, guitars, piano,dancing,blabla
im signing up for hiphop soon anyways.haha don;t laugh at me.:D
kinda excited in a way..
andd. i got A1 for my lit. HA-HA
suck my ass. im quite good ehh?
haha i met a new friend from np. called khairul. haha.
oh yarhZ! kang is frm np too hahaha---
eh i think firman is also frm np. right.............
anyways, theyre really really nice ppl.
like firman and hussin comforted me quite a bit when i was sooo fucken depressed(not exactly) but yeah i was really thankful :D
oh and definitely not forgetting my babe,connie and shiyee. aww. love ya'll to bits sweetie.
if not for you guys i would stil be really sad... i think.
haha. so ima going for miss tans wedding!ZOMG i cant wait! with chai i think and si huay. :D:D
oh kang is frm rp..
anyways, life was never fair so im kewl about it.
sooo .... to ya'll faggots out there no point bitching bout how fucked up it is. jus be a man and live with it.:)
HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA
TAKE IT FROM ME.
Friday, October 16, 2009
maybe somebody will love me like i need
its so weird....................
like i was soooooooooooo fucking upset. and connie and i were talking in the playground and called coodie* and we were talking bout it.. allthough coodie kept quiet the whole entire time do you know how damn fustrating that was?!
thn we went to *$ and it was like dead awkward silence for like 22 mins. until coodie finally said soorryyy and i mean it takes 20 mins for coodie to say that GRRR. but at least coodie apologize. so thats okay i guess.
i jus wana be cared okay?:)
anyways.. things were fine aft that :) thn we walked round tm and t1 aimlessly
but at least we settled it before tmr. haha. hais.
i'll be good:)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
BOOMZXZXZXXXXXXXXXZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
funny shit . hahaha
i got 2 dresses today! YESYESYES
and ima getting aother one i think..........
maybe not.. i should spent it on smth else i guess
im so relieved exams are over, can finally buang all my books. whewwww .:D:D:D:D:D:DDDD:D:D
and i have t0 buy larry a green tea latte.:)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
hahaHAHAhahahaHAHAHA
and he was like :$
i was like :D
connie was like :^^
shiyee wa like :@
it was soooooooooo fuckin funny
OMFG
hahahah.
but he eventually found out it was me ohh and she ws like sooo are you dzulkifli MURARI?!
hahahahaha. fuck that shit pls.
aya, but he spoil the fun sia.
tmr last paper. physics. buang.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
for you i will
GOD I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM!
argh..................................................................................
im so fucken mad!
anyways:) chi paper was tough.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
billy
anyways today was greatttttttttt.:D it was not out of hand so YAYYY. and i manage to study lit in the library. although i was really mad at :) at first aya, fuck it. but at leastt things turned out okay:D
anyways, dzul said my hands are very small.
should look at shiyee s hands they're wayy smaller.:D HAHAHA so i aint that bad.
we were bitching bout wendy actually.heex really hilarious.
subjects i wana buang---
a)social studies
b)amath
heng ss is over. but i'm kinda worried for my physics tho.grrr.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
slow dancing in a burning room
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath
Of this love that we've been working on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms
We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You'll try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Cause you can't understand
We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
Go cry about it, why don't you? My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
Don't you think we oughta know by know?
Don't you think we should have learned somehow?
this is sucha nice song (:
anywayyys, jus wana fag bout my day and how much i HATE mornie and wendy .
today was great(:
and everythings going as planned. YAY:D
hahaha:D
mornie is the most useless piece of crap ive ever seen in eng.
she gave us like 2summary essays to complete in lessons. so basically she does NOTHING but sits in front of the com and smile to herself. i was like -------------- what the fuck is your prob-------------------------------.-
and she claims that the whole level is doing summary but whn i asked co miss soh apparently didnt give her class 2 summaries to do.
right. motherhell.
and wendy. WOW. i hate you. i really don't respect you AT ALL. like everybody hates her. as everyone know, i'm NOT tall. yes wateverrrrrrr. i don give a fuckeroo.
she ask me to pressed the projector which is like uuhhhhh, wow so high, and tim was like fucking right behind me..
i was like what the fuck is your prob you crazy piece of fag?! ccunt sia.
like excuse me?! she jus wana embarrassed me in front of the whole class, but awwwwwwwwwwwwwww failed attempt. really FAILED. and guess what?! she lost my necklace it was from art iin glass. gift frm my fav aunt and she lost it. wth. you're gonna pay me back, god you piece of SHIT. oh and i want to apologise to mis soh and mr toh for being a bitch in your class, for miss soh forthe ast 6 months. and mr toh for the past 7 months haha :D sorrry :)
anyways, away from all these mofotic imbasils, im a lil upset with :). argh....at least we both are going good.
blazing hormones...okay FINE.
ARGH.
do guys take intercourse for love or love for intercourse? i hav no idea.
okay, I HAVE NO MOTHER BEEPING COMMENTS BOUT *MISS SINGAPORE.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
clear liqour and cloudy eye.
just an overview:
mac lipstick
dress,(not really)
loafers
rapid black liner frm mac.
black eye shadow frm clinic, eh. i think i'ma getting it frm BHG if i don't have $$
haha!fuckerrrooo
some weird shirt frm fareast. haah :)
i think i'ma buying e mac lipstick b4 EOY. oops haha :D
i got 18 out of 20 for my math common test........ can you believe it.
he was like. OMG samantha?! you got 18. YES. thank you. im glad i make your day.
-
My hands are searching for you...
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips...
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire runs in through my being...
Burning...
I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you All Around Me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me....
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade...
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway...
The angels singing say
We are alone with you...
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry...
The light is white...
And I see you...
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive!
I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand I give it to you
Now you own me , all I am..
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I beleive...
I can feel you all around me
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healed.
-
all around me by flyleaf
.
i need this song to survive(;
Friday, September 11, 2009
stolen
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart
Invitation only, grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight
You have stolen my heart
And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well
You have stolen
You have stolen my heart
I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart
-
dashboard confessionals
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
with or without you.
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
chocolate run.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
they call her love
im stil having probs uploading my pix on face book argh. we went out on um sat haha, and camed whore quite a fair bit. it was damn funni. haha.
-
I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around
But she takes it all for me
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days
But she makes me want to believe
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
She is all I need
Well I had my ways, they were all in vain
But she waited patiently
It was all the same, all my pride and shame
But she kept me on my feet
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
She is love, and she is all I need
And when that world slows down, dear
And when those stars burn out, here
Oh, she'll be there, yes she'll be there
They call her love,
love,
love,
love ,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her
love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love, love, love, love, love
She is love, and she is all I need
She is love, and she is all I need
She is love, and she is all I need
-
by parachute VA
a fantastic band.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
the cupid effect

just look at that idiot on your left. SIGH.





Tuesday, September 1, 2009
and larry kept calling me lao char bo. you stupid!
oh, n we played with nutella in skol. like the whole level, so we kinda got shit frm dm. i have no idea why, n i'm totally not ashamed of it, its not as if we threw shit everywhere. dude, its chocolate syrup.
n we had to like stand in a row while he screamed at us. it was totally embarrassing cuz it was in front of our seniors seniors. so its like WTFFF.
but oh wells , it was NOT A BIG DEAL AT ALL. i have NO IDEA why all the teachers have to be a cunt about it.
AT least we cleaned up the shit we created.
aint that bad. (:
Monday, August 24, 2009
carry on so you don't have to hurt again
i'm stil coping okay i guess, with my work and relationships.
although sometimes it hurts like hell.
at least my social circle is expanding quite a lot. YAY haha
anyways, im stil rtying to get glossy paper to print out my pix. damn!its so hard to get things done
schools suchcha DREAD.
i'm closer to God these days, had been doing my QT, reading the bible, feeling hes presence really touches me. feeling his comfrt is really great. (:
and i've been learning a lil bit of malay. hahaha
i was
sHe walked outside her world the other day
she knew that he would leave eventually
Like the rest he promised everything
she's heard it all before
they never stay
Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
so carry on, carry on my friend
Wipe away the tears and don't you cry
it hurts like hell right now but give it time
may this lesson learned be your best
loves not worth the risk and don't forget
Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
cause walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
but carry on, carry on my friend
carry on...carry on..
I don't ever wanna hurt like that again
carry on by the mayfield four.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
fuckthatshit!
i'm stopping my drummin so i can get one at home! hahahahah(:
oh, being pregnant makes you pee like seabiscuit.
kims really mad at iskanda. babe, i TOTALLY understand why.
ohhmffg, debra and i were rolling my thumbs in eng class, and MINI mornie scolded us, and CLAIMED that we were playing.
she doesnt know whads W.T.F. what the hell?! playing.? i dungetit.
pls explain. but the funni thang was aft she turned around, both of us simultaniously pointed at her. hahaha, crack the shit up of me. ha.
and mr toh wee kuang screamed in rage yest, it was SOO FUCKING FUNNY!! i so swear, damn!i didnt vid it down or itll be here forever.damn haha. its was so hilarious! i was trying so hard not to crack up, so i was makin myself think of sad stuff....haha yeah
and shiyee agitated me so much in physics class. fuck it. and i was like like (fuckerrrrrrd!)so loudly the whole class turned and look at uhhh.. me i guess haha. damn,so embarrasing.
omg and yeah, i went to my babe cousin's bday yest. she can recite 1 to 10 in jap, hokkien, malay, chi and eng.
shes 2 yrs old. WOW.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
once upon a time.
last few weeks were rather peaceful. playing silly quizzes on facebook and thinking of twitt in my sleep. no eyebags (:
i did well for my bio test (:(: yay. haha
aniwes, i hate amath.
i dunno where are things heading b/w my bff and i . argh,
saw sheryl in e bus stop whn i was on 27. she was singing to herself. weirdo
eng was sooooo fucken boring! like we had to go into our grps and discuss a lame article and ans some lame questions which was incredibly lame. bored my to tearrrrrrs.
i spat my gum out while laughing hard. damnn.
gonna chew it hard fer a week.
had a good laugh with nat and sy on e bus. speak of e devil .
GRIZZLY BEAR.
hahaha.
i realize i have quite a num of nerdy friends..
nerdy is good.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
nailing jelly on the wall
haha
thanks babe (:
and hersheys gum
i gav e em to debra and that bitch had to throw the m away cuz she was caught by mini mornie
hahahaha
you assholee
aniwes, i didnt know that wendy tan told some of my friends that i'm violent.. very violent
juz bcas i threw ONE THING my fone
DOESNT MAKE me a violent person, are you an idiot?
she told cass and it made me sound as if i'm a verry rash person.
i'm not.
do you know how my friends will think of me that way? and i'm in a rather new class. you really tainted my reputation. LUCKILY i have friends who realllly know me. luckily.
i think it's really lame to go round telling ppl what i'm NOT capable of.
so much for a 'teacher' like you. you didnt think did you? i don't actually think its VERY nice of you bitching bout me behind my back. pls show some sensivity, which is very much lacking in you.
Monday, August 10, 2009
soon it will be.




I've been gone for far too long!
Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
Have I fucked things up again?
I'm dreaming
Too much time without you spent!
It hurts!
Wounds so sore!
Now I'm torn
Now I'm torn
I've been far away
When I see your face
My hearts burst into fire!
Hearts burst into fire!
You're not alone
I know I'm far from home!
Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days that I just spent
My bed's so cold, so lonely
No arms, just sheets to hold me
Has this world stop turning?
Are we forever to be apart?
(Forever to be apart)
I'm coming home
I've been gone for too long!
(I'm coming home)
Do you remember me at all?
Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
I'm screaming
I'm dreaming
HEARTS BURST IN TO FIRE
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS YOU'RE MOTHER FUCKING PROBLEM?!
CENSOR THAT SHALL WE.
OH THANKS DAD! FOR LIKE LOOKING AT MY MSN HISTORY AND SPYING ON MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND LOOKING AT MY TAGG AND BLOG. WELL THATS GREAT!!!! I HOPE YOU BLOODY HELL READ THIS SHIT.
YOU'RE DISGUSTING AND HORRIBLE. JUST SO YOU KNOW.
I WANT TO THANK YOU SOO SO SO! MUCH FOR INSPECTING ME AND LOOKIN THRU ALL MY STUFF.
OH YOU CANT STOP ME FROM MIXING WITH ALL THE FRIENDS I WANA CHILL WITH.
I HAVE MY FUCKING DISERMENT SO PLS. STOP TREATING ME LIKE A BLOODY HELL 3 YEAR OLD SPASTIC IDIOT.
I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING HELL MAD IS THAT MY DAD EXPLICTLY CHECKS ALL MY MESSAGES, CALLS, FACEBOOK, TAGG,MSN HISTORY!? AND MY HW, MY FRIENDS.
LIKE MY PARENTS HAVE ALL MY CONTACTS IN THEIR FUCKING PHONE!?
LIKE WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THEIR MOTHERFUCKING PROB?!
WHY DON;T YOU DO THAT TO PRIS?! LIKE SO WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME MIZING WITH ALL THESE FRIENDS? WELL IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH MY DOING SO THEN LETS HAV A GATHERING SHALL WE?! DON;T FUCKING JUZ LOOK AND CALL ALL MY FRIENDS AND START ACCUSING ME OF DOING ALL THOSE SHITTY STUFF. LIKE SERIOUSLY FUCK IT. THATS SO DAMN BLOODY HELL GROSS.
YOU DISGUST ME LIKE SHIT
BY DOING SO.
AND YOU JUZ DONT GIVE ME THAT DAMN FREEDOM WHICH I DUE NEED.
OH SO YOU THINK BY DOING ALL THIS MOTHUFUCKING SHIT WILL DRAW ME AWAY FRM MY FRIENDS?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
DREAM BIG.
AND THANKS FOR CALLIN MIS WENDY AND TELL HER ALL THE SHIT I DID.
BY THE FUCKING WAY, I ONLY THREW MY FUCKING FONE. LIKE SOOOO WHAT ??!?!?!
PPL HAV DIFFERENT WAYS OF DEALING WITH ANGER.
MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY.MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY. LEMME EMPHASISE. SAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY.
WELL I FORGAVE YOU BUT DID YOU?
AND DAD, STOP ACTING PARANOID AND SHIT.
YOU FUCKING NEED COUNSELLING.
YOU GUYS SHOULD DREAM BIG!.
THANK YOU ! I'M DONE!
Monday, July 20, 2009
blurred lines
totally unxpected. so aint my fault. sorry i ditched sheryl and ran off :O
but i guess 3verythin wen xtremely off the line. it was kinda blurred.
bt at least i had my principles
hahaha. rode onamotobike to punggol.
ws raining shit. haha.
i ws crazy to have told bff. shit. andi broke his heart. argh.
aniwes.
i think we've patched up so gues thats okay. (yest)
whew.
Friday, July 17, 2009
i used to be such a nice girl (:
saw a blind mother with her child
saw a fat girl of whom legs look like kfc's drumlets
saw a cute boy
smsed a few friends
didn't paid much attention in eng
ran 2.4
heard kick me whn im high by sum 41
played with perry
did chi
cheryl chai and si hui saw my camwhore pixz. OMFG WHAT THE HELL!?
took piz for cls vid.
glen has a crappy face haha . (::
gona study wit sheryl at star$ aft drums
gona eat at a sushi restaurant (: YAYYAY.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
lady luck
heex.
bought a super big fudge like thing and brownies (:::
mon was mundane. stayed at hme and StudY
there're so many test nx week
and mdm lim said that if we continue to not do our hw she keep our phone.
omFg
thats soo mean. what the HELL!?
its not like i cant live without my phone but i juzz ned it .
my sis bought ths realay kewl bag.
i'ma buying a old skol gay pink shoes frm promod on fri.
DONT STEAL.
Friday, July 3, 2009
gone goinG
ima going hillsong concert on the 25 of this month (::
yay
haha thanks sheryl (::
anws, sheryl and joy ad i are eating dinn tmr (:: yay besties
oh right.. i cant bring THE laptop out.
:(
i love drums lesson (::
i saw a blind man. it was so sadd.
oh i almost tripped today in front of the bus.
its always good to give ppl chances.
becuz you should know you suck.
my bff is going armyyyyyy soon. :((((( thats so sadddd.
oh right, i played with perry today, its gettin a belly. omfg its so cute. feathers are like super soft (: tehe
and it tried to fly but to no avail haha.
gone going by black eye peas (:
Monday, June 29, 2009
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
i've lost all sense of control
but luckily i finished most of my hw (::
xcept chem, math and eng
so i've done emath, chi, lit and bio
ha for the first time
(:: manx i'ma good.
anyway i'm stil contemplating whether i should go for light the way. shucks. and sorry cry cnt make it todaeeeeeeee
D:::::::::
ooh and basil andi sighned the PEACE TREATY. yeah right. haha
omg ya! i bathed perry today! (::: and it knows how to fly back into its cage wee
it was screamin cuz i washed its claws. ha. chirpchirp
oh and i think its a lov bird.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
hangovers doesn't pass
sckols starting sooon dangg
i HATE skol. i hope all my teachers dieeeeeeeee ooh i'm sorry i take that back
i bet sy has put on her braces alr. hhahahahaha
oh my drums teacher said i played well (:(:;
haha he was like very good.
i really dun like to bragg bt i'm really quite good (:: haha yeah , in your face losers (::
oh and he was scolding this guy who couldn't get e beat right and stuff.. he ws angry ;0
kim, thanks fer all your concern it really helped me babe. (::
i played with perry today!! omg it BIT ME!? what the HELL!? wadd a mean birdddddddd
haha but yeah, at least it shaite on my mom's hand (::
i prefers my dad to me :( so sad
and i went out wit crystal today (::: teehee we bought sushi (:
oh haha my drums teacher was like - okay clss triple f''s (fff) means very loud. double f's' (FF ) means loud and F means !? FUCKKKK!
Friday, June 26, 2009
RIP jacko. i'm your biggest fan.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
angels of mercy
omg my dad caught a parrot ! i named it perry. pixx tmr (:: haha
its really nice. its turquoise in colour. haha
yay, i'ma finally going out tmr (: :
its really kinda stupid to club til like the wee hours of the morn. its bad for your skin. haha, well ya, i hope their faces rot like fuck
haha
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
wash me clean.
luckily i'ma finally getting to seoul garden fer lunch with my besties (:: yay
haha anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
my dad cancelled my fucking sim card. yerp i cant send or recieve calls or messages.
SUCK BIG TIME and he didn't tell me !? yeah. waw.
i was like fucking mad bt ai, he's weird anyways .haha shaite
Saturday, June 20, 2009
stil the longest yard.
i need second chances.
toottoot
joy WILL send me my pics we took on wed.
oh i watched drag me to hell. it was like -.- shaite.
gasping fer breath.
had a lil fight wit my mum yest, so went out of the house fer 2 hours.
oh and this kind soul gav me his wireless sg email plus password (::
drums was soooooooooooo boring. he made us repeat like ten times fer a stupid beat. and there's this fag in my class who cant get the beat so we basically kept playing it. goddamn sucks like hell
anyways i did amath
AND emath.
my lips keep cracking (: it keeps bleeding ouchhhhhhhhhhhhh
omfg i totally hope moe CLOSES SKOOL FOR 2 WEEKS
goddamn that'll be so super dper. yay.
oh i went to the lib and there was this scrawny women beside me who kept farting.
her fart sounded like my phone's vibration. :0 kewl
nd i met a new friend called myron??
sounds like ..okay (: ciao
xxx
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
sweetheart, i hope i didnt make a mistake
babe, just want you to know that you've been an fantastic mate to me.
and from the day i met you til now, you've always lift me up, never let me down..
although our friendship blossomed, im truely sorry i coulnt accept your love..
all the messages you've sent me make me crack.. and i couldnt stop ttearing..
theres just something different bout you frm my past relationships and sometimes i wana say i love you so badly but theres smethings i cant say and somethings i may never do..
i don't want to lead you on.
but babe, you'l always be the one i run to when i'm crying.
i was fucked once by my family and you kept me in yaw company for hours (::
i felt so much better after that.
babe, you fuzz my heart.
this conversation's at your face, although my words tick days, you're my every page of hope.
you know my heart.
don't erase
don't rewind
you meant so much to me.
sometimes i feel that i've lost everything but etched in my heart, i know you've always been there..
i'll be okay (::
sweetheart, i need your messages to feel warm
i know a min means everything to you. but babe, i'm sorry.
this wasn't easy for me .
please believe me.
i pray you'l never let go..
babe, lets stay here
although promises meant nothing anymore.
although words haave never been easier for me to say,
babe i need you so.
you'll be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, i'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds.
cas for once, i saw a beautiful lie, one i could never live without.
much loves,
samantha (::
Monday, June 15, 2009
fuck you very much. please do not stay in touch. :D YES!
my bff lovs me.
kinda cracks my heart to know that we'll never be together.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
better HUSH
it has bn a week.. haha
anyways.
i'mma going east coast tmr fer a *class outing
like seriously gerald DO NOT tell me to fuck off yaw. you get it?!
no one tells me to fuck off BITCH
yaw moma didn't teach yaw manners boyyyy!?
what a lifelesss dorke
i've to take yo to CHURCH.
so much bout piercing ahole.
i'd turn into a rude dude.
goddamnYea, Goddamm, You think you cool, you think im not you think you toughGoddamm, you think you hard, you think im soft, you think you roughGoddamm, You talkin shit, betta close your lips, you need to hushBefore the end of the night im gunna have to take your ass to church
i'll knock out yaw lights ya babe, beware.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
don't trust me



i ain't fucking scared of him.
don't trust me.
shoosh girl , jus shash your lips.
and do the hele kellle
and talk with yor hips gaylord.
hey man. do not randomly point your dick at ppl you don’t know. Its way beyond being spastic and barbaric .
wadda dorke. tskk
LETS ALL BUTT BUMP and wear thongs shall we (:
GEE can’t wait
CAN’T WAIT!
!oh we had a -class outing on mon. was so super dup(: haha
e fact that i puke out my pasta. EW. ben, if i had a wan, i'll turn you into a pink slugg
slugs hav 4 noses.
AW, aint that a nice pict.
you're gna be sooo proud

the duration of a mth leson was like 1
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hours.
apparently i had to get the hell outta class fer some air (::
haha connie! lets do the four quads fer a math A-S-T-C
it irked me terribly
haha
yap, we'll put poison in their food and then they;ll sufferrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
hahahahahahahahahahaha
(::::
and pris i really try to act my age, its not my damn fault i'm just too bloody childlike (::
hl milk has 2g of faats . !ohno
!kung!kung!kung!kung!kung.
My lashes are 1 cm long(::
Sunday, June 7, 2009
and the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
un failing god.
your loves's unending
firm in the heaven it stands.
Friday, June 5, 2009
can you grow up, before i throw up
why do teens think its so damn kewl to get drunk and make a ass out of themselves in public. eating shit. they don't really grow up do they. its perfectly fine getiing drunk at home. but getin drunk outside is as embarrassing as baring yo ass in public luh.
one word fer them . EW
i did my facial in jean yip on sun. i cant believe i gave my face to some weird beautician who didn;t even had properly curled lashes do clean my face. it was mortiffying
oh! and i'mma buying my clubmarc bagg tmr (:(:
Thursday, May 28, 2009
sorry, but i play
ipod died
did indices on the board
had a fire alarm
played taboo, won two cards
had recess with julia etc
misplaced my bio midyr paper
celebrated a birthday
ate mushed up chocolate and scared everyone
had a stomach ache aft that
threw wet toilet paper at frds
threw wet toilet paper up e celing
played double dare
almost bought topshp
had a pimple
tripped ovr myself
was sad fer a min
was happy fer an hour
borrowed 5 books
brought my sis to jean yip
blended avacado
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
techno
went tot yog. bored to tears.
had lunch with my class.
treated my friends to eggs
played dog and bone
lost a couple of times
got nagged at by my mum when i reached home
was forced by my dad to have dinner
went out with joy delia and sheryl
saw a couple of nice shorts
watched angels and demons
thrillers scares me.
haunted joy.
had a bubbble tea
saw a few styrio miroll ppl.