let your washing machine speak!

2010-06-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

I NEED A BREAK.
THANK YOU.

ashes and wine

2010-02-17T02:42:00.001-08:00

your mama don't dance and your daddy dont rock and rolllllllllllllll.

get me out of this fugly world please

2010-02-10T02:57:00.001-08:00

I have to learn t

forgive others,

And take criticism,

accept the fact that ppl are gona remember what you mistakes are and blank out your accomplishments

stay strong even others say you’re not gona make it

be who you are

you’re gonna pay for something you did not do

Accept accusations

Be hated

Be slandered

Backstabbed

Be alone

And independent

be neutral

Have your own stand

Fend yourself

To forget

Be open

Be mindful

Patient

Loving

Cheerful

That people are selfish

and want things for themselves

to wait

that people are liars

to be a bitch.

And not a loser.

The world is a very evil place to live in.

seed

2010-02-03T02:49:00.000-08:00

You were the only face I'd ever known.
I was the light from the lamp on the floor,
and only as bright as you wanted me to be.
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick,
and I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there.

It was the only place I'd never known.
Turned off the light on my way out the door.
I will be watching wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had is no longer there, longer there.

You saw for yourself, the way it played out.
For you, I am blinded.
For you, I am blinded, for you.

I am no gentleman, I can be a prick.
And I do regret more than I admit.
You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink.
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist.

Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had, everything we had.
Everything we had, everything we had,
everything we had...

I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall.

everything we had.
THE ACADEMY IS.

WEE

2010-01-22T02:44:00.000-08:00

hahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I GOT 18 FOR MY MATH TEST HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

dirty free

2010-01-21T02:51:00.000-08:00

i got a water bottle full of whiskey in my handbag

2010-01-19T02:43:00.001-08:00

i'm not gonna whine
i'm not gonna cry.
i'm gonna deal with it.

because after all, it was never worth the risk.

blah blah blah

2010-01-18T02:32:00.001-08:00

I DID IT.

talk talk talk

2010-01-17T02:51:00.000-08:00

Honestly, I think its kinda funny that you waste your breath talking about me,
Got me feeling kinda special really

sucha shit talker

he's mine

2010-01-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

i aint holding no alibi.
the only thing i'll be holding is your pony tail. when i ripp it out of your scalp//

i've got mine.

LIVE IT UP

2010-01-14T02:51:00.001-08:00

TRUST NO ONE.

i was made for something beautiful

2010-01-10T02:24:00.000-08:00

people should stop hating and start loving. i know some other unresonable people may be an ass to you but you should stop being trashy and stupid and stop pls, putting all e crap and shit they do on your fb status. PLS. start loving yourself and embrace life. just because these ass holes make up some shit for you and you get all hard up and get all upset and bitter over..letssee...nothing. cant you just act like a mature adult? why do you have to bother over all the childish things they do to piss you? its not worth it. and now, and by doing that,it shows how much you care about what they do to provoke you. anyone with the brains would know how to ignore them. stop feeding their hates. its so very annoying. and soon, guys will run away from you hateful and bitter girl cuz they'll soon know you will never be satisfied with anything. girl, you need to learn the ART OF IGNORANCE. cuz one day, it'll rot inside of you.
and if people like them* calls you a B and don't appreciate for who you are .if its a guy, why wil you want to waste your precious time on a useless blob of fatS like him? and if its a girl, kick her ass. please jus come to the realization that its ALL NEVER WORTH THE RISK. and wipe the :( out of your face PLEASE. or i'll just smack it away. god, its so 'isgusting.

darling darling around my door.

2010-01-08T02:39:00.000-08:00

its all so nice to be taken care off. i hope it'll be this way forever.

anyways, today was hilarious. :D everyday is actually.

im quite satisfied with myself bcuz i'm putting effort in my work now. quite amazing actually :)

samson

2010-01-07T02:38:00.000-08:00

hahha today was super funny. debb and jiha jumped on me and i like totally fell in e floor hahaha :D aww such sweethearts. screw the pain it was nothing hahaha :D unglam ness is good (:
anyways. ll lesson was like incredibly boring. thank God sihuay was sitting bside me so we had a good laugh.
im quite excited bout the underwater world thing actually hahaha.
and yest during pe i thought i ws quite an asshole. hahaha. those fags went to look at my camwhore picts .OMG . its not like girls don't campwhore but i jus store them in my phone. god it was such an embarrassement hahaha.
today was dynamic. (:

and one more thing.
screw all the fans who supports singapore idol and all the stupid weird judges and all the bullshit crap they give. they are the worse fans in the whole of FANS history.

lovers do

2010-01-05T02:37:00.001-08:00

cradle me and i'll cradle you.

:)

2010-01-03T02:42:00.001-08:00

ITS KINDA FUNNY, HILARIOUS ACTUALLY. HOW YOU CAN LIE RIGHT IN MY FACE BOUT SOMETHING SO TRIVAL.
HA-HA-HA-HA-HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

YAWN

2010-01-03T02:31:00.000-08:00

i'm exhausted.

and school's starting tmr. omg time flies

its kinda depressing and happy at the same time

ironic aint it

but i'm just delighted cuz it'll keep me occupied for the rest of the week and wont have any distractions to care bout so thats a good thing

the sad and moody feel would be all the teachers and shite

but i hope itll be slightly better tis year

and oh we were completing our hw today and we saw 2 really 10000 hot guys

they were like so hot and dashing and everyting

hahaha :D

god it gives me the jitters

..not really

haha but they were hot

and i feel sweaty now

ohohoh and i'ma going for an audition for my drums :D HA HA

GG-FIED!

2009-12-27T02:26:00.000-08:00

DON'T COPY!
Z went back to the hospital again!
omg i was incredibly worried. he fainted the first time cuz he blatantly didn't drink up when he was supposed to .
and i think he's getting weaker or smth so he was apparently ashen white yest and was sent to the hospital to do some check and the doctor found that he's blood count was low and he's body temperature droped drastically D;
I AM SO WORRIED
he actually went out to ride for 6 hours at the ecp ,e one with the never ending tunnel, for 6 hours. and as usual, i sent him like a 6 page message repriminding him. he reached home at like WHAT. 4.31am .
i hope he doesn't stay at that place again. gosh, its so depressing.
anyways, i will be chionging my hw this week.
SIANz
next year is goona be SO DIFFERENT.

come before

2009-12-27T02:14:00.000-08:00

come before

before you now

and i lay my burdens down

prince of peace

counselor

son of father i adore

i love you lord

you're all i have

you're all i ever really want

your face is all i seek

you're put a new song in my heart

a song of praise to the lord

and i will worship all my life

trust in the lord

hallelujah. hallelujah
hallelujah, hallelajah

ohh ah ohh ah ohh ah ohh

2009-12-25T02:15:00.000-08:00

ohh hahaha. this were my church mates but none of them were in my camp group (: HAHAHA

oh and my camp mates and i went to sentosa yest. hahah :) i really liked their campanion. and the fact that gene is migrating to brisban soon :(

seriously, the red plastic bags totally ruined this almost flawless picture. :(

SPASTIC FACE! !

the play today was reallly engaging. hahah. i could relate to it more than last year's play :)

so i went 313 with rachel and my sis . IM GONNA BUY THAT BOOTS FROM NEW LOOK.

i feel like i'm falling

2009-12-21T02:49:00.001-08:00

Standing tall in this wide space
Getting lost in Your embrace
I see a fire burning brighter
It's calling me to catch the flame

I feel like I'm falling over and over in love with You
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real
I feel like I'm falling into the arms of a mighty God
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real

You're drawing me closer to Your side
It's the safest place I know where to hide
With one glance You captured my heart
You speak Your words and set me apart

I feel like I'm falling, I feel like I'm falling
I feel like I'm falling, falling into the arms of love

amazing grace

2009-12-21T01:57:00.000-08:00

camp was .. life changing .
i've realize that i need to change.
and actually , i've been a happier person then before.
i was carrying all the weight from life, from heartbreaks . but i feel so light now, after i decided to leave everything to God. i feel so .. free (:
and theres no need to rush or be impatient about things. because i will let everything fall in his time.

There was a man who smiled like the sunrise
His face I cant forget
His love displayed was unlike any other
He humbly dressed just like a vagabond with
Discourse like a King
And when he talked the angels stopped to listen

Hosanna
Filio David
Hosanna
In Altisimis

(Hosanna, Son of David, Hosanna in the Highest)

He often spoke about a Kingdom coming
His words I cant forget
Where all who come may rest beneath His mercy
Where royalty is flowing through the veins of
Every citizen
And every soul is treasured like a promise

2009-12-14T02:43:00.001-08:00

2009-12-09T02:16:00.000-08:00

(:
i'm s s s so sorry.

2009-12-07T02:42:00.000-08:00

im have speedlight camp next week and i'ma so doubting it cuz.. . ive never went to 1before so i don't know anyone there. awkward...

love is so transient (:
oh i completed some of my assignments today. haha. yay finally somethings accomplished. hahah.
how i wished everything can be so effortlessly done. hahah.
but christmas is finally coming <3

if you fall

2009-12-07T02:27:00.000-08:00

Let's talk and we'll fill the air
The imagery that lasts forever
So this is love and that's a lovely thought
You have to care for it to keep it together

And if you fall, will you get up
Stuck in a dream, will you wake up
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold, will you stay warm
Drift too far, will you swim towards the shore
And if you've found love will you hold on to it

Let's just sing and we'll fill the air
The melodies that blend together
I speak so sweet of words so delicate
Like the glass I hope will never shatter

And if you fall, will you get up
Stuck in a dream, will you wake up
And if you've found love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold, will you stay warm
Drift too far, will you swim towards the shore
And if you've found love will you hold on to it

beautiful

2009-12-07T02:26:00.000-08:00

Come on baby
Come on girl
Come on baby
Come on girl

I love you baby
I love you now
I love you baby
I love you now

Look at us, were beautiful
All the people push and pull
But let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try

Look at us, were beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide

Come on baby
Come on girl
Come on baby
Come on girl

I love you baby
I love you now
I love you baby
I love you now

Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try

Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide

Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try

Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide

i'm so happy (:

2009-12-03T02:34:00.000-08:00

hey bitch! :D you drop something.
your face.

according to you

2009-12-01T02:11:00.000-08:00

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you
I’m difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I’m a mess in a dress,
can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

According to you
I’m boring,
I’m moody,
you can’t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me dizz-ay

According to me
you’re stupid,
you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. you, you
According to you. you, you

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right

2009-12-01T02:04:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD. I THINK I'M IN LOVE

OOPSY DAISY. I'M SORRY IM BITCHY I'M ANNOYING I'M AN INCREDIBLE SUCKER. BUT THATS OKAY. I'VE GOT NOTHING TO LOOSE .
AND YES ACCORDING TO ME,
YOU

ARE

NOTHING

HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SORRRY BITCH!

the decade from hell

2009-11-29T06:27:00.000-08:00

i'm not gonna speak profanities cuz i don't want to go hell.

i caught a flame

2009-11-27T00:18:00.001-08:00

i've realize i've been livin in denial for one and a half months. no matter how i try to turn to other sources of distraction, its really hard to supress my feeings cuz its jus gona rise. i don't really know where to start . frankly speaking.i'm kinda stuck. i was hurt a month ago BADLY. and its kinda hard for me to let go. so thats why i feel like a loser cuz if only i knew that i couldn't handle it i wouldn't have taken it. i know it has been quite a long time ago. but i'm still trying to burnt all my memories away and thats hard.but i think it breaks me when i feel that probably i was forgotten loong time ago.and i'm still in this quandary situation . feeling all shitty and everything. i may put a facade but nay,i cant really escape the truth cnt i? still trying to swallow this shit down . hope i don't choke (:

God shaped hole

2009-11-26T02:26:00.000-08:00

Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But all comes down to faith
Thats the way i see it

You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
"all we have is know"
But i don't believe it

There's a god-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a god-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void only he can fill

Does the world seem gray with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?

That's my point of view...

i blew it

2009-11-26T02:14:00.000-08:00

i've been cancelling appointments with my friend lately and he's reaally super mad at me. i know how it feels i know its bitchy and stupid and annoying. ppl done it to me before so i always try my best not to do it to ppl but apparently i was sick last fri and that was the third time we arranged it. so BOOMZ man. he was so mad at me and ignored me for 2 days i think. i said i was sorry and i asked him to forgive me. for being a total bitch but he didn't. rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr whateverrrrrrr. who gives a shit.

tick tock.

2009-11-24T02:22:00.000-08:00

i've not been going out lately.ah the weather is horrific :(
and i don't wana fall sick AGAIN
and i had diarrhea :O OMFG suck hell.
ohhh and i watched paranormal yest. not the current one. i watched the one in 2007. and apparently its based on a true story. the couple wanted to experience the spiritual ream and everything.. you know paranormal activites. to the expanse of their death. i have no idea why someone would wana play with this kinda spiritual thing. i think i was totally freaked out because the story was true and i watched it at night so. uhhuh. and i watched exorsism. the pocessed women was tied up to a bed with chains and she BIT HER ARM OFF. she bit her arm off. i was like what the HELL!? and she spat her HAND out. seriously. WHAO.

dollhouse

2009-11-23T02:21:00.001-08:00

I’m just a girl, you’re just a boy
This is my heart, it’s not a toy
So what’s with you playing with my mind
We used to be cool, this used to be love
Now it’s become, something like a job
Like it or not, maybe things were changing right before our eyes

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
But you were in your own fantasy world
Tryna control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

Cause I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll

You call the shots, right down to my shoes
I liked what you liked cause you told me to
And i don’t think that you could even tell
I fell out of love, but it never showed
I gave up on us so long ago
But you’ll never know
baby don’t pretend like you know me so well

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
try to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll

I’ll never be made of plastic
So glad that my heart’s elastic
No matter what you do
I’ll bounce back offa you
Cut me but I’m not bleeding

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
tryna to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No I could never be, stuck living life like this
Behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll

And I come with imperfections
Epitome of perfection
if you can’t understand, loving the way I am
then you’re no good for me, so glad i kept my receipt

Real life bitch in a fake ass world

2009-11-21T02:20:00.000-08:00

my mom took the house keys and locked me here. and the bobby pins i used won't work.

i have been codependent but now i'm independent (:

meet me half way

2009-11-20T02:40:00.000-08:00

God made everything beautiful.
and over time i realize........... he must have made ME cuz only God could create a beauty like ME.
and I"m beautiful.

anyways, i'm ill. you'll not know how fucking annoying it is to fall sick when you're otw home.
went peni today with co. saw some nice guits . thought of selling my electric guit.
thn when i reached home, i got a shitty lecture from my mom. and my legs feel like jelly.
its really cold here.
i need to get gel liner.
i have a headache.

WANTS

2009-11-13T02:11:00.000-08:00

i'm very tired.
i want to throw up everything
i want to fall into a deep loong sleep.
i want to wake up thinking everythings gonna be okay.
i want to make everything perfect
i want everything i need
i want to reverse time
i want to be free
i want to be recognised
i want someone to guide me home
i want you to ignite me
i want to lead my life
i want to be happy
i want a garden
i want to fix my life
i want to reflect
i want to go to boston
i want to start anew
i want to get out of this place
i want to be found
i want to play
i want to start over
i want to get a lover
i want to go to spain
i want a new town
i want to leave this behind
i want the sunrise
i want you to fuck off
i want my time
i want you to wear my chains

fluff

2009-11-11T02:19:00.000-08:00

home's kinda quiet nowadays. kinda like it this way. everythings so silent and peaceful (: its good cuz sch is jus wagg man(: loveit.
my hands are so cold now its kinda hard to type.
and spa was just...
but Z comforted me so i guess i'll do okok lo. :)
oh and firman has 4 cats?! omFg 1 cat and 3 kittens ;) awwwwwwww.
we were talking yesterday and i could hear his cat fighting over the line. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i want one :)
persian cats are jus ... priceless.
anyways, i cant upload this perisan cat i saw on the net. kinda resembles shiyees face.. frm the side that is. shingZ.

i was like :@ he was like :* they were like :O

2009-11-10T02:14:00.000-08:00

THAT SON OF A BITCH!!!! SHE WENT TO UPLOAD MY SPASM VID AND TAGGED EVERYONE ON FB. WALAOz MOFO SEY. GRRR. ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ITS SO FUCKING STUPID!. BITCH!

blueberry yumyum

2009-11-09T02:31:00.000-08:00

so can you tell me. whats a chebai?

shiyee:ermmmmm....... hmmmmmm..... a pussy?

correct!
so whats a pussy then??

shiyee: hmmmm.. (looks around anxiously) hmmmmmmmm........................... *shows pathetic face......................... ermmmmmmmmmmmm....
a pussy is an anus?

WA FTW!?

. . .

so whats erection then?

shiyee: :( cum?

. . .

it won't be coming back to me

2009-11-08T02:15:00.001-08:00

im having problems playing desperately by michelle branch on my guitar.:( fuck it.
ohh and i learnt how to play boston by augustana on e piano. HA!
but i still prefer lullaby:)
and im gonna watch paranormal :)

don't worry honey, i never needed anybody..i never needed nobody

2009-11-03T02:06:00.001-08:00

today was funny.
oh i got scolded by the bus uncle cuz i covered his screen. the one that allows him to see the uppe deck .
oh pls, i really dunno whats the big deal.
im down with flu, it sux.
sulaiman sounds like a very fat person..
but i hav a friend called sulaiman who's really cute.
and all my friends spam my phone today. haha
i can jus buang my bio pract, cuz i broke a testtube.
so lame sia.
and she kept staring at me. WTF?!
ohh..and we had a good laugh during lucnh time. haha.
i think my mom is totally not satisfied when i tell her i don't go out wit guys. cuz i'm usually back home late and i will get interrogated when i'm back. in the toilet, when i'm changing, when i'm reading, when im eating. walaoZ.
and i had tomato sauce all over my back and armpit. connie you drunk bitch.
it was really sticky.
yuck

between love and hate-----

Watched her as she wiped her eyes;
You don't make me sorry. Now I know
That you never listened - Listen.

Thinking about that high school dance
Worrying about the finals
Yes I know
You're feeling lonely
Oh lonely, so lonely.

Never needed anybody, I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, I never needed nobody
Don't worry about it, honey
I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, it won't change now.

Am I wrong?
Don't sing along with me.
I said I was fine,
It's just the second time
We lost the war

She'd be in the kitchen
I would start the fire
Those days are gone
But you know I can't give up - Give up.

P.S. if I may ask why
When will they get tired
We've stayed up
All night tryin' - Tryin'.

Never needed anybody, I never needed nobody
I never needed anybody, I never needed anybody
Don't worry about it, honey
I never needed anybody
I never needed anybody, it won't change now.

Am I wrong?
Don't sing along with me.
I said I was fine,
The second time
We lost the war

by the strokes..:)

you keep on crying, baby i'll keep you dry.

2009-11-02T02:16:00.000-08:00

i spent a quiet halloween at home drinking and watching stupid vids of youtube.:)
oh ya pei ya somm bah leh ya roti prata cha quay tiao.
jus some pick up lines i took frm ben:)
school was fine.. jus that i was really shag today and had a terrible sore throat. co and i tried nail polish remover. i just sniffed it a lil and taste it a lil .haha it was hacking sick..argh.. i can still feel the aft taste lingering down my throat. pui noa.
yuck
and shi yee was being all so scared so she didn't try haha:)
i remembered i nearly stood on the zinc rooftop near the band room and co was so scared i'll fall off and die. hahahaha:)
i got no money, i got no car to take you on a date, icant even buy you flowers, but together we can be the perfect sole mates..
mamamia! here i go againn.
staying at home bores me to tears.

limpei sam

2009-10-30T03:50:00.000-07:00

... ... ... ... ...
jelly jelly long jiam pas pas pas!

she's so lovely she's so lovely she's so lovely!

2009-10-28T03:43:00.000-07:00

i fell off the fucking chair today !?!?!?!
the fucking chair!?!?!?!
omfg the fucking chair the fucken chair!!!! and every one was laughing at me fucking laughing at me?!?!?! omfg ive just been banished in to the valley of humilation jus shhoot me right now. fucken gosh.
ohh i really dont blame ben althuogh i really feel like cutting this face into 4 EQUAL parts. but really its not really his fault ............
hahaha. any ways. my right butt cheek is very painful....STEEL.
and ahmad was laughing the loudest i swear. you nonsense
and i think i have too many unglam vids and picts on facebook. omg.....................
mamamia here i go again!
my hair's really long now. YAYYYYY
thinking of bleaching half of it.. oh no laura will kill me.
andddddddd. ive officially stop *slouching. haha
TITS LIGHT THE WAY. HAHA thanks connie.
shi yee was rattling weird jokes to me in physics lesson. felt like tieing her up.

used vs love

2009-10-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 yr old son picked up a stone
and scratched lines on the side of the car.
In anger, the man took the child's hand
and hit it many times not realizing
he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers
due to multiple fractures.

When the child saw his father.....
with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'
The man was so hurt and speechless;
he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions......
sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches;
the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .

Anger and Love have no limits;
choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely
life & remember this:
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is
that people are used while things are loved.

Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,
People are to be loved.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

though this was really meaning full:D

jamal malik!!!:D

2009-10-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

im quite happy with y results. except for the failed ones. haha
and ohh! marksim is coming to singapore! i cant waittttttttttttt :D:D
its on the18 and 29 of nov in the esplanade concert at 730. so ima get the tix really soon:D heeX.
and i really wana go hog on all the stockings i can lay my hands on tmr.
and i need to get a dress and denim shorts againnnnnnnnnnnnn :D

you're nothing without me.

2009-10-21T03:10:00.000-07:00

haahaa, the above statement sound stupid and cliche but it just gives me the sense if satisfaction i don't know why.
haha. i jus realiz my parents always get me what i want..MOST. so i guess i should stop fagging around and start to treat them nicely.. mostly my hobbies. hmm, like my drums, guitars, piano,dancing,blabla
im signing up for hiphop soon anyways.haha don;t laugh at me.:D
kinda excited in a way..
andd. i got A1 for my lit. HA-HA
suck my ass. im quite good ehh?
haha i met a new friend from np. called khairul. haha.
oh yarhZ! kang is frm np too hahaha---
eh i think firman is also frm np. right.............
anyways, theyre really really nice ppl.
like firman and hussin comforted me quite a bit when i was sooo fucken depressed(not exactly) but yeah i was really thankful :D
oh and definitely not forgetting my babe,connie and shiyee. aww. love ya'll to bits sweetie.
if not for you guys i would stil be really sad... i think.
haha. so ima going for miss tans wedding!ZOMG i cant wait! with chai i think and si huay. :D:D
oh kang is frm rp..
anyways, life was never fair so im kewl about it.
sooo .... to ya'll faggots out there no point bitching bout how fucked up it is. jus be a man and live with it.:)
HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHA
TAKE IT FROM ME.

maybe somebody will love me like i need

2009-10-16T03:06:00.000-07:00

today was sad and happy at the same time.
its so weird....................
like i was soooooooooooo fucking upset. and connie and i were talking in the playground and called coodie* and we were talking bout it.. allthough coodie kept quiet the whole entire time do you know how damn fustrating that was?!
thn we went to *$ and it was like dead awkward silence for like 22 mins. until coodie finally said soorryyy and i mean it takes 20 mins for coodie to say that GRRR. but at least coodie apologize. so thats okay i guess.
i jus wana be cared okay?:)
anyways.. things were fine aft that :) thn we walked round tm and t1 aimlessly
but at least we settled it before tmr. haha. hais.
i'll be good:)

BOOMZXZXZXXXXXXXXXZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-15T04:36:00.000-07:00

BOOMZZ!!!!BOOMBOOMBOOM!!!!!zxzxzxz
funny shit . hahaha
i got 2 dresses today! YESYESYES
and ima getting aother one i think..........
maybe not.. i should spent it on smth else i guess
im so relieved exams are over, can finally buang all my books. whewwww .:D:D:D:D:D:DDDD:D:D

and i have t0 buy larry a green tea latte.:)

hahaHAHAhahahaHAHAHA

2009-10-14T03:47:00.002-07:00

anywaysssssss . haha i swear to god today wa teh most hilarious shit ever. like co prank called dzul and was like haha your school has lots of girls having STDs like pubicaly inflammania!?and um shes called Dr.noa ha song. and HES suppose to do a survey on guys. U GOT LEMON IN YOUR FRIDGE?!?! hahahahahahahahahahaha!? haha omg. and she was like oh you're suppose to grind the lemon together with the facial mask . hahaha. and i was like................. hahahaha. kept laughiing at the background but shiyee kept hushing me.I COULD NOT CONTROL MYSELF. then she was like oh you should like put it on your **** and dry it in the sun for 4 hours at like the playground *downstairrr your house.WTF?! haha.
and he was like :$
i was like :D
connie was like :^^
shiyee wa like :@

it was soooooooooo fuckin funny
OMFG
hahahah.
but he eventually found out it was me ohh and she ws like sooo are you dzulkifli MURARI?!
hahahahaha. fuck that shit pls.
aya, but he spoil the fun sia.

tmr last paper. physics. buang.

2009-10-12T03:54:00.001-07:00

my first day.
im exciteed in a way:)
hope itll last.

for you i will

2009-10-09T03:30:00.000-07:00

i hate last minute arrrangements and cancelled appointments.
GOD I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM!
argh..................................................................................
im so fucken mad!
anyways:) chi paper was tough.

billy

2009-10-07T03:16:00.000-07:00

i thought that was a really nice name. :D
anyways today was greatttttttttt.:D it was not out of hand so YAYYY. and i manage to study lit in the library. although i was really mad at :) at first aya, fuck it. but at leastt things turned out okay:D
anyways, dzul said my hands are very small.
should look at shiyee s hands they're wayy smaller.:D HAHAHA so i aint that bad.
we were bitching bout wendy actually.heex really hilarious.

subjects i wana buang---
a)social studies
b)amath

heng ss is over. but i'm kinda worried for my physics tho.grrr.

why is it so hard? cant you just take me?..

2009-10-05T03:51:00.001-07:00

the sky is so beautiful now.
too bad you cant see it..

2009-10-04T03:47:00.000-07:00

STRESS
this is the first time in my life i'm worried for my exams .

slow dancing in a burning room

2009-09-29T03:26:00.000-07:00

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath
Of this love that we've been working on

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms

We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You'll try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Cause you can't understand

We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Go cry about it, why don't you? My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Don't you think we oughta know by know?
Don't you think we should have learned somehow?

this is sucha nice song (:

anywayyys, jus wana fag bout my day and how much i HATE mornie and wendy .
today was great(:
and everythings going as planned. YAY:D
hahaha:D
mornie is the most useless piece of crap ive ever seen in eng.
she gave us like 2summary essays to complete in lessons. so basically she does NOTHING but sits in front of the com and smile to herself. i was like -------------- what the fuck is your prob-------------------------------.-
and she claims that the whole level is doing summary but whn i asked co miss soh apparently didnt give her class 2 summaries to do.
right. motherhell.
and wendy. WOW. i hate you. i really don't respect you AT ALL. like everybody hates her. as everyone know, i'm NOT tall. yes wateverrrrrrr. i don give a fuckeroo.
she ask me to pressed the projector which is like uuhhhhh, wow so high, and tim was like fucking right behind me..
i was like what the fuck is your prob you crazy piece of fag?! ccunt sia.
like excuse me?! she jus wana embarrassed me in front of the whole class, but awwwwwwwwwwwwwww failed attempt. really FAILED. and guess what?! she lost my necklace it was from art iin glass. gift frm my fav aunt and she lost it. wth. you're gonna pay me back, god you piece of SHIT. oh and i want to apologise to mis soh and mr toh for being a bitch in your class, for miss soh forthe ast 6 months. and mr toh for the past 7 months haha :D sorrry :)

anyways, away from all these mofotic imbasils, im a lil upset with :). argh....at least we both are going good.
blazing hormones...okay FINE.
ARGH.
do guys take intercourse for love or love for intercourse? i hav no idea.

okay, I HAVE NO MOTHER BEEPING COMMENTS BOUT *MISS SINGAPORE.

blingbling blond VA

2009-09-21T03:55:00.000-07:00

FLING OR DON'T FLING?

clear liqour and cloudy eye.

2009-09-14T03:38:00.000-07:00

i wana get high and drunkkkkk. YES. aft my exams. any one care to join? damn im so bored. ive written my shopping list during math. YAY.

just an overview:
mac lipstick
dress,(not really)
loafers
rapid black liner frm mac.
black eye shadow frm clinic, eh. i think i'ma getting it frm BHG if i don't have $$
haha!fuckerrrooo
some weird shirt frm fareast. haah :)

i think i'ma buying e mac lipstick b4 EOY. oops haha :D

i got 18 out of 20 for my math common test........ can you believe it.
he was like. OMG samantha?! you got 18. YES. thank you. im glad i make your day.

-

My hands are searching for you...
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips...
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire runs in through my being...
Burning...
I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you All Around Me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me....
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade...
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway...
The angels singing say
We are alone with you...
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry...
The light is white...
And I see you...

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive!

I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand I give it to you
Now you own me , all I am..
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I beleive...

I can feel you all around me
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,

savoring this heart that's healed.

-
all around me by flyleaf

.
i need this song to survive(;

stolen

2009-09-11T03:37:00.000-07:00

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

-
dashboard confessionals

with or without you.

2009-09-09T03:44:00.001-07:00

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you

chocolate run.

2009-09-08T03:30:00.000-07:00

sat was like the best shit SHIT EVER. and i hav e MOST unglam pix put up on fb. OMFG. i wana drink cofffe club. and i'm gona buy a persian pussy cat. HA!

they call her love

2009-09-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

my mom is currently scolding me right now. she really sucks. and shes really annoying. AND, she doesnt encourage me AT ALL. so much for respecting her. and she alws pick on all the shitty things i do and never once the good stuff. *sam! go do your amath, why is your eng so bad?! go study harder?! why do you spent time on the internet. mind you i onli have one hour ofint daily. my parents went to sign this mutha fucking contract so i onli get to use the int frm 6 to 7. YES pathetic. my mom keep having this imposition that i'll go to nowhere aft my olevels or like i'll stay back blablabla. she doesnt have faith in me that i'll do well and her TONE omfg when she starts to get all screamy and shit, goddamn that fucky. really some fucky shit. GOD and she LOVES to tell my dad al my really bad results and less of my good results. its not like i didnt scored good results but she wants my dad to worry or like hate me to an extent its really getiing on my nerves very badly,. like he works and i dun wana worry him, but she on the other hand blehs out shit frm her mouth to him, so hell be very upset. like daboliew t f. SERIOUSLyyyyyyyyyyy.
im stil having probs uploading my pix on face book argh. we went out on um sat haha, and camed whore quite a fair bit. it was damn funni. haha.

-
I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around
But she takes it all for me
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days
But she makes me want to believe
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
She is all I need
Well I had my ways, they were all in vain
But she waited patiently
It was all the same, all my pride and shame
But she kept me on my feet
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
She is love, and she is all I need
And when that world slows down, dear
And when those stars burn out, here
Oh, she'll be there, yes she'll be there
They call her love,
love,
love,
love ,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her
love,
love,
love,
love,
love
They call her love, love, love, love, love
She is love, and she is all I need
She is love, and she is all I need
She is love, and she is all I need

-
by parachute VA
a fantastic band.

the cupid effect

2009-09-02T03:10:00.000-07:00

just look at that idiot on your left. SIGH.

click image for a bigger pict.

unglammmmmmmmmmmmm.

think that sheryl's ear?:O

the pasta's so GOOOOOOD

YUMMMM :D

okay, tada, that was like mon. and i didnt have time to blogg it cas i was apparently buzy with nothing.

anyways, an influx of things happen to both my friends and myself. but um, i think mine is quite "stable"already. i hope.

i am just super paranoid. we talked bout it on the fone just now and assured me that if anything goes wrong, will do everything to help so i'm like WHEW. but .and my friends think its like TOTALLY impossible. so i try to trust them and hope for the best. but its indeed IMPOSSIBLE. rightright????? YESSSSSSSSS. okay. god i need the brainwashing frm so badly. argh, but its impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossibe impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible impossibe impossible impossible impossible impossible impossible .

ok, slightly better.

NOTHING HAPPEN NOTHING HAPPEN NOTHING HAPPEN.

don't tell me by avril lavigne

You held my hand and walked me home I know

While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh

You wiped my tears,

got rid of all my fears,

why did you have to go?

Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love cause you're so hard to trust

Did I not tell you that I'm not like that?

You're the one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you,

this time?

Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do

and cry?

Don't try to tell me what to do,

Dont try to tell me what to say,

Your better off that way

Don't think that your charmin the fact that your arm is now around my neck

I got you in my pants

I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget

I'm gonna ask you to stop,

thought I liked you a lot,

but I'm really upset

Get out of my head

get off of my bed yeah thats what I said

Did I not tell you that I'm not like that,

you're the one who,

throws it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you,

this time?

Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do

and cry?

Don't try to tell me what to do,

Dont try to tell me what to say,

Your better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't,

mess me up but you're no wrong

Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you,

this time?

Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do

and cry?

Don't try to tell me what to do,

Dont try to tell me what to say,

Your better off that way

Better off that way

I'm better off alone anyway

nice song

anyways, we hav SO much home work for this one week hols. so i guess i'm stuck at home with all these cuntly and bullshit hw i OUGHT to be doing. WTF. teachers should really go get a LIFE.

blabla black sheep have you any wool.

yes sir yes sir 3 black wool.

wait, is it wool?

whatever,my fringe is getting too long.

i think loosing friendships are extremely sad.

so sad.. so sad.. its a sad sad situation, and its getting more and more absurd.. so sad .. so sad .. why cant we talk it over.. alll.. blablabla.

we got back our results. SLUT sial.

but i got Aone for chem HA-HA-HA, TO THO SHI YEE. PWNED!.

2009-09-01T03:26:00.000-07:00

i was so shag yest. slept late n had din with my friends it was like wtf, damn tired.
and larry kept calling me lao char bo. you stupid!
oh, n we played with nutella in skol. like the whole level, so we kinda got shit frm dm. i have no idea why, n i'm totally not ashamed of it, its not as if we threw shit everywhere. dude, its chocolate syrup.
n we had to like stand in a row while he screamed at us. it was totally embarrassing cuz it was in front of our seniors seniors. so its like WTFFF.
but oh wells , it was NOT A BIG DEAL AT ALL. i have NO IDEA why all the teachers have to be a cunt about it.
AT least we cleaned up the shit we created.
aint that bad. (:

carry on so you don't have to hurt again

2009-08-24T03:40:00.000-07:00

mayfield four is a great band.
i'm stil coping okay i guess, with my work and relationships.
although sometimes it hurts like hell.
at least my social circle is expanding quite a lot. YAY haha
anyways, im stil rtying to get glossy paper to print out my pix. damn!its so hard to get things done
schools suchcha DREAD.
i'm closer to God these days, had been doing my QT, reading the bible, feeling hes presence really touches me. feeling his comfrt is really great. (:
and i've been learning a lil bit of malay. hahaha
i was

sHe walked outside her world the other day
she knew that he would leave eventually
Like the rest he promised everything
she's heard it all before
they never stay

Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
so carry on, carry on my friend

Wipe away the tears and don't you cry
it hurts like hell right now but give it time
may this lesson learned be your best
loves not worth the risk and don't forget

Let your heart beat idle so that it can never break
and carry on, carry on
so you never have to hurt again
cause walking as a loner is like walking with the dead
but carry on, carry on my friend
carry on...carry on..

I don't ever wanna hurt like that again

carry on by the mayfield four.

fuckthatshit!

2009-08-22T03:21:00.001-07:00

thats classical music can you damn believe it.. no
i'm stopping my drummin so i can get one at home! hahahahah(:

oh, being pregnant makes you pee like seabiscuit.
kims really mad at iskanda. babe, i TOTALLY understand why.
ohhmffg, debra and i were rolling my thumbs in eng class, and MINI mornie scolded us, and CLAIMED that we were playing.
she doesnt know whads W.T.F. what the hell?! playing.? i dungetit.
pls explain. but the funni thang was aft she turned around, both of us simultaniously pointed at her. hahaha, crack the shit up of me. ha.
and mr toh wee kuang screamed in rage yest, it was SOO FUCKING FUNNY!! i so swear, damn!i didnt vid it down or itll be here forever.damn haha. its was so hilarious! i was trying so hard not to crack up, so i was makin myself think of sad stuff....haha yeah
and shiyee agitated me so much in physics class. fuck it. and i was like like (fuckerrrrrrd!)so loudly the whole class turned and look at uhhh.. me i guess haha. damn,so embarrasing.
omg and yeah, i went to my babe cousin's bday yest. she can recite 1 to 10 in jap, hokkien, malay, chi and eng.
shes 2 yrs old. WOW.

2009-08-18T03:31:00.001-07:00

my fb is screwed up.

once upon a time.

2009-08-12T03:17:00.000-07:00

i slept for 7 hrs yest. damnn. felt xtremely tired in skol. cuz i was 45 mins later thn my sleepin time (:
last few weeks were rather peaceful. playing silly quizzes on facebook and thinking of twitt in my sleep. no eyebags (:
i did well for my bio test (:(: yay. haha
aniwes, i hate amath.

i dunno where are things heading b/w my bff and i . argh,
saw sheryl in e bus stop whn i was on 27. she was singing to herself. weirdo
eng was sooooo fucken boring! like we had to go into our grps and discuss a lame article and ans some lame questions which was incredibly lame. bored my to tearrrrrrs.
i spat my gum out while laughing hard. damnn.
gonna chew it hard fer a week.
had a good laugh with nat and sy on e bus. speak of e devil .
GRIZZLY BEAR.
hahaha.
i realize i have quite a num of nerdy friends..
nerdy is good.

nailing jelly on the wall

2009-08-11T03:22:00.001-07:00

omg sidney bought me studs fm malaysia

haha

thanks babe (:

and hersheys gum

i gav e em to debra and that bitch had to throw the m away cuz she was caught by mini mornie

hahahaha

you assholee

aniwes, i didnt know that wendy tan told some of my friends that i'm violent.. very violent

juz bcas i threw ONE THING my fone

DOESNT MAKE me a violent person, are you an idiot?

she told cass and it made me sound as if i'm a verry rash person.

i'm not.

do you know how my friends will think of me that way? and i'm in a rather new class. you really tainted my reputation. LUCKILY i have friends who realllly know me. luckily.

i think it's really lame to go round telling ppl what i'm NOT capable of.

so much for a 'teacher' like you. you didnt think did you? i don't actually think its VERY nice of you bitching bout me behind my back. pls show some sensivity, which is very much lacking in you.

soon it will be.

2009-08-10T03:35:00.000-07:00

was at that cd shop. WOW check that out.

fine me :O

I'm coming home!
I've been gone for far too long!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Have I fucked things up again?
I'm dreaming
Too much time without you spent!

It hurts!
Wounds so sore!
Now I'm torn
Now I'm torn

I've been far away
When I see your face
My hearts burst into fire!
Hearts burst into fire!

You're not alone
I know I'm far from home!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days that I just spent

My bed's so cold, so lonely
No arms, just sheets to hold me

Has this world stop turning?
Are we forever to be apart?
(Forever to be apart)

I'm coming home
I've been gone for too long!
(I'm coming home)
Do you remember me at all?

Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
I'm screaming
I'm dreaming

HEARTS BURST IN TO FIRE

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS YOU'RE MOTHER FUCKING PROBLEM?!

2009-08-04T03:07:00.000-07:00

MY DAD'S SUCH AN @#&%*#$^%($&%
CENSOR THAT SHALL WE.
OH THANKS DAD! FOR LIKE LOOKING AT MY MSN HISTORY AND SPYING ON MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND LOOKING AT MY TAGG AND BLOG. WELL THATS GREAT!!!! I HOPE YOU BLOODY HELL READ THIS SHIT.
YOU'RE DISGUSTING AND HORRIBLE. JUST SO YOU KNOW.
I WANT TO THANK YOU SOO SO SO! MUCH FOR INSPECTING ME AND LOOKIN THRU ALL MY STUFF.
OH YOU CANT STOP ME FROM MIXING WITH ALL THE FRIENDS I WANA CHILL WITH.
I HAVE MY FUCKING DISERMENT SO PLS. STOP TREATING ME LIKE A BLOODY HELL 3 YEAR OLD SPASTIC IDIOT.
I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
WHAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING HELL MAD IS THAT MY DAD EXPLICTLY CHECKS ALL MY MESSAGES, CALLS, FACEBOOK, TAGG,MSN HISTORY!? AND MY HW, MY FRIENDS.
LIKE MY PARENTS HAVE ALL MY CONTACTS IN THEIR FUCKING PHONE!?
LIKE WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS THEIR MOTHERFUCKING PROB?!
WHY DON;T YOU DO THAT TO PRIS?! LIKE SO WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME MIZING WITH ALL THESE FRIENDS? WELL IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH MY DOING SO THEN LETS HAV A GATHERING SHALL WE?! DON;T FUCKING JUZ LOOK AND CALL ALL MY FRIENDS AND START ACCUSING ME OF DOING ALL THOSE SHITTY STUFF. LIKE SERIOUSLY FUCK IT. THATS SO DAMN BLOODY HELL GROSS.
YOU DISGUST ME LIKE SHIT
BY DOING SO.
AND YOU JUZ DONT GIVE ME THAT DAMN FREEDOM WHICH I DUE NEED.
OH SO YOU THINK BY DOING ALL THIS MOTHUFUCKING SHIT WILL DRAW ME AWAY FRM MY FRIENDS?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
DREAM BIG.
AND THANKS FOR CALLIN MIS WENDY AND TELL HER ALL THE SHIT I DID.
BY THE FUCKING WAY, I ONLY THREW MY FUCKING FONE. LIKE SOOOO WHAT ??!?!?!
PPL HAV DIFFERENT WAYS OF DEALING WITH ANGER.
MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY.MOM, DONT FORGET WHAT YOU DID. AND SAY. SAY. LEMME EMPHASISE. SAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY.
WELL I FORGAVE YOU BUT DID YOU?
AND DAD, STOP ACTING PARANOID AND SHIT.
YOU FUCKING NEED COUNSELLING.
YOU GUYS SHOULD DREAM BIG!.
THANK YOU ! I'M DONE!

blurred lines

2009-07-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

sat was wet and hot (: *hinthint.
totally unxpected. so aint my fault. sorry i ditched sheryl and ran off :O
but i guess 3verythin wen xtremely off the line. it was kinda blurred.
bt at least i had my principles
hahaha. rode onamotobike to punggol.
ws raining shit. haha.
i ws crazy to have told bff. shit. andi broke his heart. argh.
aniwes.
i think we've patched up so gues thats okay. (yest)
whew.

i used to be such a nice girl (:

2009-07-17T05:03:00.000-07:00

i saw an middle aged man crying
saw a blind mother with her child
saw a fat girl of whom legs look like kfc's drumlets
saw a cute boy
smsed a few friends
didn't paid much attention in eng
ran 2.4
heard kick me whn im high by sum 41
played with perry
did chi
cheryl chai and si hui saw my camwhore pixz. OMFG WHAT THE HELL!?
took piz for cls vid.
glen has a crappy face haha . (::
gona study wit sheryl at star$ aft drums
gona eat at a sushi restaurant (: YAYYAY.

lady luck

2009-07-08T05:29:00.000-07:00

went to hagendaz with my mom n sis on sun (:

heex.

bought a super big fudge like thing and brownies (:::

mon was mundane. stayed at hme and StudY

there're so many test nx week

and mdm lim said that if we continue to not do our hw she keep our phone.

omFg

thats soo mean. what the HELL!?

its not like i cant live without my phone but i juzz ned it .

my sis bought ths realay kewl bag.

i'ma buying a old skol gay pink shoes frm promod on fri.

DONT STEAL.

gone goinG

2009-07-03T05:22:00.000-07:00

omfg yayyyyyyyyyyyyy
ima going hillsong concert on the 25 of this month (::
yay
haha thanks sheryl (::
anws, sheryl and joy ad i are eating dinn tmr (:: yay besties
oh right.. i cant bring THE laptop out.
:(
i love drums lesson (::
i saw a blind man. it was so sadd.
oh i almost tripped today in front of the bus.

its always good to give ppl chances.
becuz you should know you suck.

my bff is going armyyyyyy soon. :((((( thats so sadddd.

oh right, i played with perry today, its gettin a belly. omfg its so cute. feathers are like super soft (: tehe
and it tried to fly but to no avail haha.

gone going by black eye peas (:

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2009-06-29T05:13:00.000-07:00

YAY JOY FINALLY SENT ME THE PIXS YAYYAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

ANYWAYS. omg i listened in class today, naw thats a miracle.

i've lost all sense of control

2009-06-28T05:20:00.000-07:00

i hate skool.
but luckily i finished most of my hw (::
xcept chem, math and eng
so i've done emath, chi, lit and bio
ha for the first time
(:: manx i'ma good.
anyway i'm stil contemplating whether i should go for light the way. shucks. and sorry cry cnt make it todaeeeeeeee

D:::::::::

ooh and basil andi sighned the PEACE TREATY. yeah right. haha

omg ya! i bathed perry today! (::: and it knows how to fly back into its cage wee
it was screamin cuz i washed its claws. ha. chirpchirp
oh and i think its a lov bird.

hangovers doesn't pass

2009-06-27T01:29:00.000-07:00

lalala laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sckols starting sooon dangg
i HATE skol. i hope all my teachers dieeeeeeeee ooh i'm sorry i take that back
i bet sy has put on her braces alr. hhahahahaha
oh my drums teacher said i played well (:(:;
haha he was like very good.
i really dun like to bragg bt i'm really quite good (:: haha yeah , in your face losers (::
oh and he was scolding this guy who couldn't get e beat right and stuff.. he ws angry ;0
kim, thanks fer all your concern it really helped me babe. (::
i played with perry today!! omg it BIT ME!? what the HELL!? wadd a mean birdddddddd
haha but yeah, at least it shaite on my mom's hand (::
i prefers my dad to me :( so sad

and i went out wit crystal today (::: teehee we bought sushi (:
oh haha my drums teacher was like - okay clss triple f''s (fff) means very loud. double f's' (FF ) means loud and F means !? FUCKKKK!

RIP jacko. i'm your biggest fan.

2009-06-26T06:12:00.000-07:00

OMFG JACKO DIED ?!

i cannot believe this.

what the hell man!?

i'll miss you like shaite. you are truly the king of pop, besides elvis.

you're a legend. and everyone should know that.

and besides that, you look extremely hot even aft surgery.

angels of mercy

2009-06-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

i have 69 posts.

omg my dad caught a parrot ! i named it perry. pixx tmr (:: haha
its really nice. its turquoise in colour. haha

yay, i'ma finally going out tmr (: :

its really kinda stupid to club til like the wee hours of the morn. its bad for your skin. haha, well ya, i hope their faces rot like fuck

haha

wash me clean.

2009-06-24T02:20:00.000-07:00

i'm soooooooo bored.
luckily i'ma finally getting to seoul garden fer lunch with my besties (:: yay
haha anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

my dad cancelled my fucking sim card. yerp i cant send or recieve calls or messages.
SUCK BIG TIME and he didn't tell me !? yeah. waw.

i was like fucking mad bt ai, he's weird anyways .haha shaite

stil the longest yard.

2009-06-20T03:20:00.000-07:00

i am bored . bored bored bored................................................

i need second chances.

toottoot

joy WILL send me my pics we took on wed.
oh i watched drag me to hell. it was like -.- shaite.
gasping fer breath.
had a lil fight wit my mum yest, so went out of the house fer 2 hours.
oh and this kind soul gav me his wireless sg email plus password (::
drums was soooooooooooo boring. he made us repeat like ten times fer a stupid beat. and there's this fag in my class who cant get the beat so we basically kept playing it. goddamn sucks like hell

anyways i did amath
AND emath.

my lips keep cracking (: it keeps bleeding ouchhhhhhhhhhhhh

omfg i totally hope moe CLOSES SKOOL FOR 2 WEEKS
goddamn that'll be so super dper. yay.

oh i went to the lib and there was this scrawny women beside me who kept farting.
her fart sounded like my phone's vibration. :0 kewl

nd i met a new friend called myron??
sounds like ..okay (: ciao

xxx

fly away-nelly

2009-06-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

hell yes

Cornell Haynes, hell hot.

sweetheart, i hope i didnt make a mistake

2009-06-16T23:06:00.000-07:00

this post is dedicated to my belovedd bff (: loves

babe, just want you to know that you've been an fantastic mate to me.
and from the day i met you til now, you've always lift me up, never let me down..
although our friendship blossomed, im truely sorry i coulnt accept your love..
all the messages you've sent me make me crack.. and i couldnt stop ttearing..
theres just something different bout you frm my past relationships and sometimes i wana say i love you so badly but theres smethings i cant say and somethings i may never do..
i don't want to lead you on.
but babe, you'l always be the one i run to when i'm crying.
i was fucked once by my family and you kept me in yaw company for hours (::
i felt so much better after that.
babe, you fuzz my heart.
this conversation's at your face, although my words tick days, you're my every page of hope.
you know my heart.
don't erase
don't rewind
you meant so much to me.
sometimes i feel that i've lost everything but etched in my heart, i know you've always been there..
i'll be okay (::
sweetheart, i need your messages to feel warm
i know a min means everything to you. but babe, i'm sorry.
this wasn't easy for me .
please believe me.
i pray you'l never let go..
babe, lets stay here
although promises meant nothing anymore.
although words haave never been easier for me to say,
babe i need you so.
you'll be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, i'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds.

cas for once, i saw a beautiful lie, one i could never live without.

much loves,
samantha (::

fuck you very much. please do not stay in touch. :D YES!

2009-06-15T03:45:00.001-07:00

fuck you by lily allen is such a happy sonng (: shucks

my bff lovs me.

kinda cracks my heart to know that we'll never be together.

better HUSH

2009-06-11T01:46:00.000-07:00

sheryl hasn't sent me the picts yet

it has bn a week.. haha

anyways.

i'mma going east coast tmr fer a *class outing

like seriously gerald DO NOT tell me to fuck off yaw. you get it?!

no one tells me to fuck off BITCH

yaw moma didn't teach yaw manners boyyyy!?

what a lifelesss dorke

i've to take yo to CHURCH.

so much bout piercing ahole.

i'd turn into a rude dude.

goddamnYea, Goddamm, You think you cool, you think im not you think you toughGoddamm, you think you hard, you think im soft, you think you roughGoddamm, You talkin shit, betta close your lips, you need to hushBefore the end of the night im gunna have to take your ass to church

i'll knock out yaw lights ya babe, beware.

don't trust me

2009-06-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

the candid shottttttt

i ain't fucking scared of him.

don't trust me.

shoosh girl , jus shash your lips.

and do the hele kellle

and talk with yor hips gaylord.

hey man. do not randomly point your dick at ppl you don’t know. Its way beyond being spastic and barbaric .

wadda dorke. tskk

LETS ALL BUTT BUMP and wear thongs shall we (:

GEE can’t wait

CAN’T WAIT!

!oh we had a -class outing on mon. was so super dup(: haha

e fact that i puke out my pasta. EW. ben, if i had a wan, i'll turn you into a pink slugg

slugs hav 4 noses.

AW, aint that a nice pict.

you're gna be sooo proud

the duration of a mth leson was like 1

111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111

hours.

apparently i had to get the hell outta class fer some air (::

haha connie! lets do the four quads fer a math A-S-T-C

it irked me terribly

haha

yap, we'll put poison in their food and then they;ll sufferrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

hahahahahahahahahahaha

(::::

and pris i really try to act my age, its not my damn fault i'm just too bloody childlike (::

hl milk has 2g of faats . !ohno

!kung!kung!kung!kung!kung.

My lashes are 1 cm long(::

and the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

2009-06-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

un failing god.
un failing god.
your loves's unending
firm in the heaven it stands.

can you grow up, before i throw up

2009-06-05T05:10:00.000-07:00

its really not cool to get a hangover. esp outside.
why do teens think its so damn kewl to get drunk and make a ass out of themselves in public. eating shit. they don't really grow up do they. its perfectly fine getiing drunk at home. but getin drunk outside is as embarrassing as baring yo ass in public luh.
one word fer them . EW
i did my facial in jean yip on sun. i cant believe i gave my face to some weird beautician who didn;t even had properly curled lashes do clean my face. it was mortiffying
oh! and i'mma buying my clubmarc bagg tmr (:(:

sorry, but i play

2009-05-28T01:36:00.000-07:00

haunted by ju on at night
ipod died
did indices on the board
had a fire alarm
played taboo, won two cards
had recess with julia etc
misplaced my bio midyr paper
celebrated a birthday
ate mushed up chocolate and scared everyone
had a stomach ache aft that
threw wet toilet paper at frds
threw wet toilet paper up e celing
played double dare
almost bought topshp
had a pimple
tripped ovr myself
was sad fer a min
was happy fer an hour
borrowed 5 books
brought my sis to jean yip
blended avacado

techno

2009-05-27T01:31:00.000-07:00

couldnt get up of bed
went tot yog. bored to tears.
had lunch with my class.
treated my friends to eggs
played dog and bone
lost a couple of times
got nagged at by my mum when i reached home
was forced by my dad to have dinner
went out with joy delia and sheryl
saw a couple of nice shorts
watched angels and demons
thrillers scares me.
haunted joy.
had a bubbble tea
saw a few styrio miroll ppl.

2009-05-25T01:36:00.000-07:00

went to crash cry's house on sat . was super fun
watched ju on and scary movie 2 and d the grudge 3. it was really quite funny.
but e next thing i knew is that i could not sleep.

anyways, i MAY get a labrador. (: and i'm goona name it marley ! hhaha
they were like name it bobby! i think thats disgusting .
i'll get a yellow one from spca. caant wait . but i hav to talk to my dad bout ths first . hope it work out!

i think i cant shopp anymore if i get a dog . damnn. im broke shit . :(

suicide season

2009-05-22T02:02:00.000-07:00

GO AWAY.

fuck the rest, travis's e best manz

OKAYYYYYYYYYYY

i failed my subs by 1 11111111111111111111111111111111 mark.

what bull crap.

it was such a depressing day. or rather. idon't give a shit

but ya, seems like i have to study again.

i mean fuck exams la. mr toh was like super mad at us fer our amath.

big deal man, the pape was like so tough and shit

i like salted eggs. its niice(:

OMG. i was busy putting my nose piercing and guess wad. i made another hole.

and i'm realay not that vulgar.

rabbits run

2009-05-21T04:44:00.000-07:00

okay. i passed chinese ! yay, thats so legendary. and so my mum promise that she'll buy me a gucci shade (: yesssssssssssssssssssssssss

fredd is sooooooooooooooo super hott.

you're a sweet rockstar and everybody loves you.

haters

2009-05-19T18:48:00.000-07:00

OMG FREDDDDD.
hahaha

cheryl and i went to watch the uninvited . it was rather unexpected cas we were suppose to have a bonding dinner .
and she was bus y hiding behind the box of popcorn. haha it was really funny show

anyways aft my exams laura and i walked in the rain like crazy bitches haha. was so insane despite us missing 3 tens.

andi am going to get my denim jeans. i don't fucking care.

oh YA. babe, you are a faggot you are a faggotttttttt you are a faggottttt don'tttttt denyyyyy. liike seriously.
i'mma gonna win tis fucking race. and i'mma come back and rub my shit in your face. bitch.

rush

2009-05-14T23:54:00.000-07:00

it was such an examful week. and my brain's fried.

a math was like SHITSHITSHIT shitteshiitte shiteet shaite shiitttte shiate shilte shtteei shiitte shaitte shttie. omg i can totally do an essaay on shitting.

the quest was like all about shitting and apparently i didn;t get wad the fuck it waass saying. and i was lao saing all over my paper i swear. goddamn.
it was like..
what the hell what the shite what the banana what the watermelon what the haeven what the fuck what the kenasai what the pencil what the mr toh what the shytte what the fishball what the what the what the what the..............,,........,,..,.,.,.,
why must the teachers set such a stupid paper. like just so you know, i have flushed all the fucking log laws and the partial fraction shite down your ass. waste my time.

bullcrap.

there's stil physics and math p1 . haw boring is that. cant they blody hell give us our math p1 today?. damn

i am so bored i can cry.

aniwes, i am planning to get out of my house tis tue and go on a shopping spree. alone
yay.

i am so stress i can kill myself.NOT
12312000 seconds to go. weeeeEeEeEeEeEe

i'M STiLl DRuNk AnD yOU'rE StILL FUckING UglY

2009-05-08T00:37:00.000-07:00

i have officially made my holy shopping list (: and shopping alone is great.
no pressure
chi paper today was fine
had lunch with con and sy. it waas kinda funny. they spilt ketchap all over each other. LOL
hahaha. i am doing my shopping right aft my exams (: on wed.
one mre week and goodbye to all my ssmelly books.

$@(^^)@N+!-!@ wtf nvermind